Having Problems Recently

[jakratchet12]

I didn't really know what to title this, I guess I just felt like I needed to post something. It's not a big deal I just keep having problems letting go of the past.
Basically I overthink things and get a little freaked out by the smallest things I think its anxiety or something but I had the day off today for the first time in 6 days so I was looking forward to it and my job called needing help and I ignored it because I really needed a day off but I feel really bad for it and keep thinking tomorrow I'm going to have to make an excuse and just deal with people complaining. It's only a fast food job for the summer, but I've been having problems with people saying I'm not fast or telling me I'm doing my job wrong. I just keep thinking about it where I can't forget what people say to me even before this job its just bad. I know I should count my blessings for actually getting a job this summer and its definitely an experience but it is making me lose my mind it feels sometimes.

Sorry I'm ranting and rambling and sorry if this shouldn't be on here I don't know I'm still not really used to posting here. I guess I just always feel guilty about something and get freaked out by the smallest things I mean it takes a lot out of me just to talk to people. That's it though, thanks for reading. Sorry for the long post though haha.

[Unbreakable.]

Hi there :)

I can relate to what you're experiencing, down to the specific situation with work calling and ignoring it. From what I heard from coworkers A LOT of people ignore such calls. So it's not sth only you are doing. Remember that they won't be calling just you but about anyone, so if nobody goes in it means lots of people refused to work and it's not your personal responsibility to make sure that shift gets covered. You have every right in the world to insist on your day off. People need time off work to function properly and to have time to take care of other things.

Do you have any support for struggling so much with worries and thoughts? Getting professional help is a good way of reducing the symptoms and making things more bearable overall.

[jakratchet12]

Thank you, I'm not as worried about it now since I went into work yesterday and no one seemed to care about me ignoring the call. Thanks though that helps. I guess I kind of have support, I mean I have a friend I talk to all the time and I guess also my parents but that's really it. I might get professional help but I've always been doubtful it will help but I don't really know. Thanks though.

[Anne with an e]

Reading your post felt almost like reading something I could have written. Especially the part about complaints that you're too slow or not doing things correctly. I have such a hard time with jobs (I'm currently not employed). I always get nervous before going to work, to the point that I start worrying two days in advance about going in, and I've called in "sick" twice when I was actually just too anxious to make it. Every tiny thing I do wrong at work feels makes me feel like a giant, failing idiot and I'm constantly worried that I'm going to lose my job.

Hm. This started out as trying to empathize and turned into me ranting. Sorry.

The point I was trying to make, before I got in my own way, is that I soooo get where you're coming from.

Something I've found helpful in the past is making promises to myself before I go in. Like, I will do the very best I can and not criticize or call myself names if I make a mistake or don't know how to do something. I know that I am an intelligent person and I care about doing a good job, so I will not let myself fixate on everything I do wrong.

I would second Alpha's suggestion, though, and encourage you to find someone (especially a professional) to talk to if you can. Friends and family are great, but sometimes being able to talk to someone outside of your regular circles can be really helpful, especially because they probably have suggestions for how to handle your anxiety and can offer support while you work through it. Granted, not all professionals are great ... so definitely try to find one you click with.

[jakratchet12]

Yeah that's basically how I feel when I go into work. Thanks though I'll try that next time I go to work. It could help, I think that's a pretty good idea. I might have to talk someone professional like you and alpha said, I don't know.

[talaiporia]

How are you feeling now? I hope the changes help at work.