JustClark
29-06-2015, 12:56 AM
Hello All, my name is Clark and I have been struggling with depression for about 16 years now. I am 27 and not in a very good place in life.
I recently left the happiest relationship of my life, additionally I have not worked up the courage to confront the mother of my son to see him in over 5 months. I am 3 months behind on my child support, I screwed up this last semester at university and have made no effort to fix any of it. Additionally I am unemployed, I have been unemployed for almost 4 months, I have a very consistent history of leaving jobs without notice (14 of them actually).
On the positive side. I am highly intelligent, I learn very quickly, I feel confident I can perform nearly any skill with proficiency, I am full of endurance and stamina, I can push myself further than most when needed, I have learned many skills during my lifetime in various occupations, I am very fluent with computers and software, I am very charming and can almost always get what I want from people.
Now to my concern. If you made it this far, thank you.
I know my money is going to run out soon, I haven't found anything worth "living" for and I have been searching this entire month, I've traveled over 13000 miles and explored every option I thought I wanted. The happiest I have been thus far was high in the mountains in central Colorado and in NW Washington state as well. However the idea of working and living in these places does not satisfy me enough to go out and accomplish it.
I have constant delusions of grandeur regarding my finances and lifestyle, it is as if I actually believe I am wealthy and successful and I obviously am not. I realize I am struggling, performing poorly in life, and I want to change that.
Does anyone have any advice, suggestions, tips, or ideas on how to go about creating a better life for myself?
I am fairly young, healthy, white male, 27 years old, 6'0, 155 ish lbs, I am very very open minded, accepting, down to earth, a little cold at times, distant and isolated often, withdrawn at times and very forthcoming to individuals given the chance. There is no logical reason I should be in the position I am, but fact is, I currently am in the lowest spot I have ever been in and I hate it.
I have many options available, in fact I feel confident I can do anything, the only problem is, I do not want to do anything.
Please Help!
I recently left the happiest relationship of my life, additionally I have not worked up the courage to confront the mother of my son to see him in over 5 months. I am 3 months behind on my child support, I screwed up this last semester at university and have made no effort to fix any of it. Additionally I am unemployed, I have been unemployed for almost 4 months, I have a very consistent history of leaving jobs without notice (14 of them actually).
On the positive side. I am highly intelligent, I learn very quickly, I feel confident I can perform nearly any skill with proficiency, I am full of endurance and stamina, I can push myself further than most when needed, I have learned many skills during my lifetime in various occupations, I am very fluent with computers and software, I am very charming and can almost always get what I want from people.
Now to my concern. If you made it this far, thank you.
I know my money is going to run out soon, I haven't found anything worth "living" for and I have been searching this entire month, I've traveled over 13000 miles and explored every option I thought I wanted. The happiest I have been thus far was high in the mountains in central Colorado and in NW Washington state as well. However the idea of working and living in these places does not satisfy me enough to go out and accomplish it.
I have constant delusions of grandeur regarding my finances and lifestyle, it is as if I actually believe I am wealthy and successful and I obviously am not. I realize I am struggling, performing poorly in life, and I want to change that.
Does anyone have any advice, suggestions, tips, or ideas on how to go about creating a better life for myself?
I am fairly young, healthy, white male, 27 years old, 6'0, 155 ish lbs, I am very very open minded, accepting, down to earth, a little cold at times, distant and isolated often, withdrawn at times and very forthcoming to individuals given the chance. There is no logical reason I should be in the position I am, but fact is, I currently am in the lowest spot I have ever been in and I hate it.
I have many options available, in fact I feel confident I can do anything, the only problem is, I do not want to do anything.
Please Help!