dissociation stuff feeling triggered

[Arienette]

so he beats her up downstairs when they argue. I phone the police and they came. she apologised for me calling, and said everything is fine it's just how they argue.

so nothing was done and no charges were made.

so it continues.

and it triggers me to dissociate because it's like I'm reliving childhood traumas and i can't do anything but sit in a quiet corner and wait for it to stop.

Even though they're nothing to do with me, i get scared and when the police came they spoke to me and i was nearly crying from it (the girl was fine btw) and i feel pathetic for being more affected than the person it's happening to.

and now i'm all spacey and i can't stop feeling scared, and ... its just horrible.

i can feel myself getting floaty and disconnecting.

current coping with:
playing familiar cheery music
eating chocolate
cuddling cat
propranolol


other ideas?

[Ballerina123]

What about things that ground you? Feelings? Smells?

[Chia.]

How old are you? My first suggestion would be to find another place to live. I know that this isn't always possible or realistic, but if there is violence around you on a regular basis (not that occasional violence is acceptable) then this is going to negatively effect you and your mental health. If you're trying to improve your mental health then a supportive environment is needed.

Have you ever heard of EFT (emotional freedom technique)?
http://eft.mercola.com

Basically you use good your finger tips to tap certain parts of your body whilst always saying positive things to yourself out loud.
I have found it helpful for me, especially when i'm having bad anxiety.

[Arienette]

I'm working on my medical form for council housing with my CC next appointment.

I'm DSS and EVERYONE says no DSS unless they're like my current place and iffy landlords in this area at least (council people said that when advising me last year- and hence accepted my initial application just need to sort out medical)

I don't feel safe from him although he has never touched me he has screamed and shouted at me down the phone. And that they have broken in before. I worry about them stealing as faking paperwork and documents in my name.

I have since calmed and am feeling more with it than I was. Xx

[Bellatrix]

I'm glad you're feeling calmer.
How did you get on with your form?

[Arienette]

I've not had that appointment yet because first i'm seeing psych with her, then i'm seeing her alone the following week. She's just taken over a client load from my old cc so she's busy this next week or so.

hopefully it will be ok though - filling it out. x

[Bellatrix]

Good luck. Let us know if we can do anything to help.<3