Feeling old and tired

[Edge]

After nearly 20 years of SI, I am currently 3 and a half years free (with the odd blip.) Recently though, I have begun to realise that although I'm managing them, the urges to SI are becoming more frequent and stronger again. Whilst I have no intention of acting on these urges, I am tired of this continuing to rule my life.

Has anyone had similar feelings after a period of staying free? How did you deal with it?

Thanx

[d.rocky]

Yeah I know how you feel. I didn't do anything for around 7 and a half years. I've had a few times this year that I've just given in. I can't really put my finger on what keeps me giving in now but I do find myself constantly thinking about it even at work. Im sorry I don't have any helpful advice but I just wanted to say that I know how you feel, I find it really draining with it on my mind all the time.