What if I don't want to talk about it?

[HeliumHelmets]

I went to see my doctor today. I'm not being put on the meds he was initially going to put me on because of what I told him today.

TW: mentions of sexual assault
A lot of my mental health problems revolve around an incident of sexual assault when I was young. I haven't told many people about it.

End TW

My mother want me to talk to her about what's going on in my head, but I really don't want to talk about it. I left the gp as a wreck. Now she wants me to talk about what's going on and I don't think I can. She knows I have depression and anxiety but she doesn't know about the hallucinations or anything else.

I guess I want to know how I can tell her I don't want to talk about it without hurting her feelings? IDK. I'm a bit all over the place right now.

[sherlock holmes]

So he didn't give you medication because you told him about past sexual abuse?

I'm a bit confused really. Mental health issues can stem from a variety of reasons, and medication can help with certain symptoms. It won't get to the root of the problem which is why many people take medication alongside having therapy. So I don't see why he wouldn't give you medication because you disclosed the abuse.

You could write a letter to your mum if you couldnt talk face to face? Otherwise you could tell her you had a difficult GP appointment and you're still processing things and aren't ready to talk yet.

[HeliumHelmets]

He was going to put me on venlafaxine. Instead he's referring me to a team who can probably find me a better medication to put me on. I imagine they're going to put me on anti-psychs and he'd rather not wean me off yet another set of pills for that when I've just come off the citalopram.

[Iamcatbug]

Tbh it sounds like he thinks you need more support that he himself can offer you.

[sherlock holmes]

Oh, right that makes sense. It's good that he's referred you to somewhere more specialised.