stumpy
01-04-2015, 02:42 AM
My new drug and alcohol counsellor made me feel uncomfortable today, he questioned me on what exactly it is about my mental health that is bothering me, I barely know the guy, this is only my second session, there are lots of things about my mental health that bother me, my extreme highs, followed by extreme lows, my fear of leaving the house and fear of open spaces, my unpredictable, impulsive, destructive, or aggressive behaviour, my irritability, my odd obsessive behaviour and rituals, my si/sh, my psychotic outbursts and incidents within them that I often don't remember (that others have told me about later), my head banging in my sleep that I often don't know I'm doing, my constant feeling of the need to block out emotions using drugs or alcohol, the anxiety and agitation caused by struggling to understand others emotions and the confusion caused by trying to get other people to understand my emotions and needs.
I was thinking of writing this down for him, as I want to try to be as open as possible with him, I'm struggling with squishing everything I need to discuss into a 30 minute session, things were better today during my session as I was less anxious before my session, and he didn't appear to be clock watching today, although I didn't have time to discuss that, that was something that bothered me from my previous session, so thinking I should write that down too, and give him alternative more friendly ways to bring the session to a close.
A few other things that bother me about my mental health are trying to pull out my hair by it's roots, and when I'm feeling irritable, low, anxious or aggressive I often start uncontrollably rocking or tapping my feet, or rubbing the top of my legs in a circular motion, and use music to block out everything external of the current space I'm sitting in.
I want to write this but I don't want him thinking I'm completely crazy, or becoming too concerned about my mental health :notsure:
I was thinking of writing this down for him, as I want to try to be as open as possible with him, I'm struggling with squishing everything I need to discuss into a 30 minute session, things were better today during my session as I was less anxious before my session, and he didn't appear to be clock watching today, although I didn't have time to discuss that, that was something that bothered me from my previous session, so thinking I should write that down too, and give him alternative more friendly ways to bring the session to a close.
A few other things that bother me about my mental health are trying to pull out my hair by it's roots, and when I'm feeling irritable, low, anxious or aggressive I often start uncontrollably rocking or tapping my feet, or rubbing the top of my legs in a circular motion, and use music to block out everything external of the current space I'm sitting in.
I want to write this but I don't want him thinking I'm completely crazy, or becoming too concerned about my mental health :notsure: