Hitting rock bottom

[DthCab4Cutie94]

I really feel like im hitting rock bottom again. My fiancee left,im still broke and crashing at my moms help. i'm slipping so fast and it suck that i can see everything happy but im to messed up to even try to put my thought together to do what i need to do. i really think i need to go back to rehab. but im stubborn in my thought of ive been 14 times to rehab and i dont wanna go anymore even if i need it. it started again after a huge stressor hit and i cant get out again. when i was homeless in houston i was using all the time to deal with life. im back to opiates and i cant believe im back in this crap again.i really thought i was gonna make it clean this time.i never thought things could change so fast. i lost my car, home and fiancee. all my friends but like 3 or 4, some friends who ive known for years.

Well enough of my sad post.

Anybody have anything they recommend. im just not sure if i really need rehab or if my head is just talking myself out of it and i actually need to go. ugh.:plain:

[dragon uk]

I would say that if your back to opiates then yes you need rehab, especially with the damage it is doing to your life, like you said you have lost everything. its time to start the journey to build yourself back up again