Can't escape the darkness

[EmmaJoy]

The depression is bad again.......really bad. I don't have a psychiatrist - my last prescriber just labeled me "too complex" for her last Thursday (the one before her did that in January). I'm falling apart...everything is so dark. I don't have much more strength to keep fighting. Even one day at a time seems much.....guess I'll have to go with one moment at a time.

:-( Lauren

[crazykat]

You wrote this a few days ago, how are you doing now? I'm sorry you have had that experience with psychiatrist, I imagine that must be really hard to hear especially when you are already struggling so much. Don't give up on seeking help though because there will be someone that is willing to work with you as you deserve support too.

[MissWay]

You are so brave, Emmajoy <3

[edwardcejka]

Depression is always very bad, we just can't think a single point properly. Everything becomes very hard to face.

[EmmaJoy]

Thanks for your replies. Things are starting to look a little better. I am going back to the prescriber who just got rid of me. She said she will do my meds if I get off the one she doesn't prescribe because she is concerned about its side-effects (possible severe liver damage). I spent 22 days in the hospital in from Dec 27 - Feb 1 to finally get to something that worked at the time (the med she dislikes so much). I guess I'm failing again now anyway, so why not get rid of it?? Hopefully, I can get rid of it and get on something that will actually help long term. I'm sick of these bandaid fixes.

~EmmaJoy~