Crazy Cat Lady
29-11-2014, 07:29 PM
Hi,
I've been seeing a private Psychologist for a year now, and since April, been having twice weekly sessions as I found it hard to manage my distress in between sessions. I've been in and out of therapy for 11 years and my private therapist was the first person I felt I could "trust" and talk to, even though it took quite a while to even say a few words about the past. Over time, we built up a strong, professional relationship. She allowed me in contact her in between sessions (via text and email) and we often arranged a time to talk on the phone if it was a particularly hard session and the weekend was coming up. I made it clear that I didn't want to be a burden and she assured me that it's something we agreed and it was okay. It's been a really, really difficult year and having her there to help and support me through was really helpful. My family are supportive but they don't know about the past and the things that are going on at the moment. My therapist told me in September that she was pregnant and ultimately due to take maternity leave from early December. It was a shock at first but we had a lot of time to work through it.
Yesterday was my last session. It was so much harder than I had expected. I held back the tears but when I left, it all came out. I know it's not her fault that she's pregnant and taking maternity leave (as the rational/adult side of me knows that), however I feel alone and abandoned. She came with me to meet a possible interim therapist but I'm just not sure. She seemed more "professional" if that makes sense..... even though my current therapist is professional, I felt I could connect with her more; if that makes sense?
I am quite anxious that a new therapist won't be able to provide the support my previous therapist did and that worries me. Things are very hard and so much is going on. She is due to return late next year, and I made it clear that I want to return to her when she comes back but agreed to see an interim therapist in the meantime.
I feel overwhelmed with life at the moment and old thoughts and feelings have started creeping back in.
I've been seeing a private Psychologist for a year now, and since April, been having twice weekly sessions as I found it hard to manage my distress in between sessions. I've been in and out of therapy for 11 years and my private therapist was the first person I felt I could "trust" and talk to, even though it took quite a while to even say a few words about the past. Over time, we built up a strong, professional relationship. She allowed me in contact her in between sessions (via text and email) and we often arranged a time to talk on the phone if it was a particularly hard session and the weekend was coming up. I made it clear that I didn't want to be a burden and she assured me that it's something we agreed and it was okay. It's been a really, really difficult year and having her there to help and support me through was really helpful. My family are supportive but they don't know about the past and the things that are going on at the moment. My therapist told me in September that she was pregnant and ultimately due to take maternity leave from early December. It was a shock at first but we had a lot of time to work through it.
Yesterday was my last session. It was so much harder than I had expected. I held back the tears but when I left, it all came out. I know it's not her fault that she's pregnant and taking maternity leave (as the rational/adult side of me knows that), however I feel alone and abandoned. She came with me to meet a possible interim therapist but I'm just not sure. She seemed more "professional" if that makes sense..... even though my current therapist is professional, I felt I could connect with her more; if that makes sense?
I am quite anxious that a new therapist won't be able to provide the support my previous therapist did and that worries me. Things are very hard and so much is going on. She is due to return late next year, and I made it clear that I want to return to her when she comes back but agreed to see an interim therapist in the meantime.
I feel overwhelmed with life at the moment and old thoughts and feelings have started creeping back in.