Depressed and overwhelmed

[jessmarie123]

Sometimes I feel really great, but other times, like now, I just want to give up.
I feel fearful about my future and the school tasks I have to deal with. I feel alone and hopeless and don't want to deal with anything. I feel incapable of handling my life, but also incapable of asking for help. I don't want to deal with my responsibilities anymore, I don't want to fight.
My anorexic tendencies come out when I feel like this. I feel fat and self-conscious, and feel the need to restrict and obsessively exercise, but I can't. I feel completely incapable of getting up to do anything. Then I feel lazy and fat.
I'm so stuck, and stressed, and need advice.

[Ballerina123]

Do you have support from professionals like medication or therapy? If not do you think you could ask for it to help you manage?

Sorry your having a rough time x

[jessmarie123]

Thank you for your reply Kate.
I am currently on Zoloft and go to therapy, but my moods still seem so unstable sometimes. Some days I'm really happy and feeling normal, but some days, life just seems hopeless. So far, I'm hanging in there, but life sucks sometimes

[Doikers]

Hi Jess, I also suffer from Depression , I'm sorry you are having such a rough time , it will get better . Do you have professional support? , it really does sound like it would help you . *Leaves a hug* I just wanted to let you know you're not alone .

[JusC]

How u feeling now since u wrote this thread? You taken any advice on board regards to feeling stressed all the time? Has anything helped u to put this into practice so u can start believing I'm urself more?

I think ur doing really well by staying strong even if it dont feel like it to u. You not said anything drastic like ending ur life and I deffo wouldn't incourage for u to do that or anyone to.

Do u know what's causing u to feel stressed all the time? Has anything changed at home or at school? Maybe u and going through hormone changes? Sometimes that can play a part of it. Have u gone to see the doctor and if so what have they suggested for u to do?

Anytime u feel like this again try and take a step back and take a few deep breaths by counting to 10 and do this untill u feel more calmer and relaxed. Drink a glass of water as that can clear ur mind two. Have u heard of Mindfulness? It's very easy and relaxing to do in ur spare time? I can give u some advice on it if u want? Can PM you if u want?

[jessmarie123]

Thank you Doikers and JusC, for your replies and support.
Since I wrote the post, I'm doing a bit better. I went to school and to my doctor to get help. Eventually, yesterday, I got outside for a walk and that helped a little, too. I'm still kinda anxious and vulnerable, but a but better than I was. My main stressors that I'm trying to learn to deal with are college classes in my senior year of high school and feeling alone around my family members. My counselor and doctor do help with coping skills and fighting depression, but I think believing in myself and accepting my body are things I need to work on by myself, to a degree.
I'm very inclined to easily become stressed and depressed, and it's taking quite a while to figure out what works. I'd love some advice on mindfulness, to see if that works.