not sure what to do

[abigalelynette]

i have bipolar and bpd, just to clarify.

i rang my cpn last monday, after having psychotic symptoms in depression.

my first problem is, i dont remember what i said to him, my second problem is i now have an emergency psych apt tomorrow.

i dont want to admit to seeing/hearing things, paranoia, anxiety, aggrophobia and generally not talking for days, or washing or eating properly because im planning on going to uni in january and i dont want them to stop that happening.

im so scared in this mindset, no-one around me believes me.

do i just lie? and say everythings fine just so i keep my 'okay' status? do i cancel the apt or will that look suspect? i dont want to waste anyones time.

i dont know what to do :notsure:

any advice would be greatly appreciated

[Amaranth]

Its probably best to be honest, and tell them about your fears that you'll be stopped from going to uni. To be honest going to uni is stressful and can play havoc with mental health, so you could be putting yourself under a lot of pressure if you go before you are truly ready.

[tiptoes]

If you don't tell them and things get worse or even continue you as you are now do you think that you will be able to manage uni?

If you tell them and get treatment for these symptoms you may be able to be well enough to attend uni again.

I know how hard it is to juggle bipolar and uni, ignoring symptoms and episodes never ends well for me.

Good luck with your psych appointment tomorrow, if you decide to go.

[keep_it_together]

I'd encourage honesty as the others before me have said. Perhaps if you lay it all out on the table for them some adjustments to your medication can be made to help for going off to Uni.

As others have said too though you'll be moving away from your support structure going to Uni. Time away from everything you are leaning on for support right now usually doesn't help with mental illness in my experience.

My issues aren't quite so well diagnosed as yours and I don't believe I have quite the same problems but feeling alone somewhere new might make it very hard to cope.

Maybe if you make sure they know that you have these issues but still very much want to go to Uni your Doctor could help you find help locally to where your Uni is? Perhaps a referral letter to the mental health team in the district you'll be in.