Low self esteem, i miss her

[SamHelpPlease]

Its not as easy as everyone thinks it is.
My ex-girlfriend had sex with her boss 15 times while we were togher, we're barely 18, and then she left me when i called the cops because she told me it was rape.
She then started seeing strangers she met online and I became even more scared, and i begged her to at least bring someone with her when she did so she could be safe.
It's all my fault, i convinced her to live with her grandparents, and they let her do anything. Her dad wasnt in her life so it was up to me to make sure she didnt become this, and i failed.
She had sex with strangers, and now she has a new boyfriend who defiles her so much after only a week of being together. They do every kind of sex imaginable.
I know she'll regret this, but now she wont talk to me.
I tried commiting suicide and did and still do cut myself.
One day at 1:30 am she called me with her new bf and thy made fun of me together for me attempting suicide.
I'm so tired of life but i still lover her so much.
I want to apologize to her but she wont let me and now she moved out of the city.

[tiptoes]

You are never responsible for the actions of someone else.

It must hard seeing her behaving in this way, the best you can do is wait and let her know that when she is ready you will be there. In time she will see the light be patient with her.

I'm sorry that you are struggling at the moment, do you have any support for these feelings?

[Charmed]

Hi lovely, this sounds incredibly difficult for you and I'm not surprised you're upset by this and struggling. It can be hard when you feel you have responsibility for others and they seem to be falling down the wrong path, but ultimately it is up to her to make and learn from her own mistakes.

Do you think she would benefit from talking to anyone? Perhaps you could lead her in the direction of a doctor, or someone older to talk to. She may find it difficult to talk to you because you are so close, often talking to a stranger is easier.

How are you feeling at the moment? It sounds like you're struggling quite a lot.