I cant handle anything anymore....

[Esmay]

Hi ...sorry to bother but i really need some help...i did try to get in chat but it isnt working.I am feeling really low and have been for a while but it is getting even worse and today i feel like overdosing.I dont know how to explain what is going on in my life right now but i will try and give it a go.

I have always felt different like i dont belong in this world,like nothing i say or do is important to anyone or anything.I have had a few family problems and they are starting to get out of hand again :crying: .All i know right now in my head is that i want nothing more than to be dead forever and not just for an hour or a day or a month but i dont want to exsist anymore.I have no purpose to be here there is nothing keeping me here.I have cut my arm and covered it with a bandage as best as i can...

i have tablets in my bag and i just have strong urges to take them.My thoughts are all over the place :crying: .I am not brave or strong or worth anything i am just what people call ...A WASTE OF SPACE!!.If i could have one wish right now it would be to be 6ft under ground,that way everything will be better ,not just for me but for everyone else that thinks i have no purpose in this life.

Many people have told me to kill myself and how to do it ...i dont know why i have stuck around this long...not if thats what people want..

I am sat here trying not to cry ...inside of my body feels like there is a million little men in there with pitch forkes stabbing away at me.

Im not at home right now and its making everything even worse by the face i am sat here bleeding under my bandage and i have these horrible thoughts that i cant get out of my head :crying:

Why was i ever born .

[Snow White.]

Esmay it sounds like you're in a really crisis place at the moment and have experienced some really bad things you don't deserve. I'm sorry to hear how much you're struggling. Can you get support from Donnelley like a professional, tell a doctor or counselor how you're feeling?

Where are you now?

I hope you're safe xx

[Esmay]

Who is donelly ? I was ay school I dont no where I am now I overdosed and just kept walking I dont feel great I miss my baby girl :'(

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

I'm sorry you're feeling so terrible at the moment lovely, where are you now? Are you able to call someone & get somewhere safe?, If you've taken an overdose you defiantly need to be seen by a doctor, no matter what. Are you able to call 999/911 or get to an A&E?

[Esmay]

Im scared :'( im not wanted at home

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

Is there anywhere you feel safe at the moment?
Did you manage to see a doctor?

[Esmay]

No I didn't and nowhere is safe there out to get me.

[Esmay]

I went home ...and i wished i hadnt :(...I am worth nothing to my parents ,how can they be so selfish ...cant they see what there doing to me .

[ennae]

I'm so sorry that your parents are not being supportive. Is there a friend or someone else you can talk to?

[Esmay]

I dont know what to do anymore I need to get away :'(