Dissociation & telling a therapist

[[SundayGirl]]

Long story short, I have been diagnosed with BPD (amongst other things)
Anyway, I've been dissociating this past month, a lot. I've always done it but it's more frequent now. I find myself feeling strange & not in my body or ill zone out for an amount of time. My mental state has been worsening over the past few months.
The only help I'm receiving is a therapist at ED services. She is brilliant, i feel like I can talk to her but I'm being discharged due to Being unable to change my eating at this point in time. She's made it clear she's worried about discharging me given my mental state but had no choice. I don't want to seem like I'm getting "worse" in order to keep her as my therapist. (I've been involved with other services that I've disengaged with & I asked when I was going to be admitted to a psyc ward to keep seeing her, so my trust in her is known)
I'm very frightened of coming across needy/desperate/attached to her.
Should I mention what's been happening?

[Laura2.0]

Hi,
I think you should talk about the dissociation with her, especially as you trust her.
If your mental state has been worsening, even though you are getting treatment for the ED stuff then maybe it is not the right time to work on the ED. I think that there is an underlying problem, and maybe this problem is causing the ED. So, if the ED is 'just' a symptom then getting treatment for the ED wont help in the long run anyway.
But it's worrying that your mental state is getting worse and that you are dissociating a lot more than usually. I think that your best chance to get better in the long run is to get treatment for trauma or whatever caused the dissociation (most of the times caused by trauma) and then it is possible that you are able to work on your ED better, too.

So, if you are talking to your therapist about the dissociation, then maybe you could talk with her about your mental state getting worse, too. And if it is really like I said, then you could ask her if she can recommend someone to you, wo is working with trauma (or whatever is causing your mental state to get worse).

Hope this is helping a bit,
Ginny

[Crazy Cat Lady]

Hi lovely,

Yes, please try and mention it to her. I also suffer with dissociation and know how scary it can be.

They do tend to discharge if you're not ready to deal with your ED. It's worse when you trust your therapist. I'm sure there are other understanding professionals in other services but I know how scary it is, especially if you've been with someone a while.

PM me anytime x