Clomipramine and meltdowns.

[Steel Maiden]

I primarily take Clomipramine for OCD and anxiety, but it also held with my meltdowns. I'm on 150mg a day now and it has helped a bit with my OCD.

However I still struggle with meltdowns. I whacked my head repeatedly against the wall last night. My meltdowns aren't always physical though, sometimes I get "internal" meltdowns where I get very depressed and can go non-verbal for a while.

I'm setting my psychiatrist next month. If the meltdowns don't get better, I might ask to go on 175mg a day.

Question is, how do I explain my meltdowns to her?

I tried explaining meltdowns to a disability advisor at uni and she said "you need to learn anger management".

They're not fueled by anger, they're fueled by severe anxiety and communication problems.

I don't want to come across as a spoilt brat to my psych.

[Ballerina123]

I think your psych will understand more than you think. He/she is trained in mental health and that includes behavioural problems. Where as the disability adviser is just an advisor who is not as qualified as your psych.

[shadow-light]

as has been siad your psych may understand. But I have met ones that don't. For me it's when the external or internal "stuff" gets too much my brain almost shuts down and as it doesn't know how to react either stops and I become totally incapible of communicating or it goes sort of into overdrive and then things will be thrown and yelling will happen and noone will have any idea what's going on. I find it hard to explain too... sometimes it's just like my brain isn't filtering stuff so I see and hear EVERYTHING and I can't cope, it's almost like time's slowed and everything beomes brighter to the point of pain and everything feels more intense so even my clothing will start to hurt when it's touching me. It's awful. I have foudn that some psychs sort of understand, others are willing to go do some research before I see them again, and others get totally confused and start to assume things that are not right. Only way to know which your psych is though is to speak to them I guess

[Steel Maiden]

Thanks for the advice. I'll talk to my psych or perhaps type her a letter.