(I'm not sure what to label this as?) I need advice or help or something.

[Eliana09]

So I have felt suicidal or whatever before, and at the moment these feelings are at bay. The topic of suicide, is obviously going to come up at school and within classes and it makes me feel so uncomfortable and in a way was quite triggering. I almost broke down in class today and I know I cannot allow myself to get like this every time it is mentioned, so I need advice as to how to not allow myself to get like this. It's especially difficult when someone asked me why I became so uncomfortable with the topic and I don't know. Just any advice would help because I don't want to cut or whatever as a result of not being able to deal with the topic.

[Sirloin]

Something very similar happened to me when self-harm was mentioned in my class, I got very uneasy and just sorta shut off from everyone else. At the time it hit close to home, and I was asked why I was so upset. I told my teacher that the whole thing was making me feel uncomfortable and he stopped talking about the topic, but if other people at your school are the ones talking about it just try and separate yourself from them (yes I know it's cliché as hell, but it's the best thing to do). I can see that being a problem if you're in the same classroom as them but just attempt to not associate yourself with them.

If you ever need anyone to talk to feel free to message me, I will be more than happy to chitchat. I hope you feel better. :)

[Eliana09]

Thank you, yeah that did help aha! Just hope next time I can distance myself or something. Thank you, and same goes to you. :) thanks!

[Belt]

I would argue that you have every right to feel awkward and uncomfortable if someone mentions such a difficult topic as suicide in class and that you should be able to excuse yourself from class because of that even discreetly to, "use the bathroom" honestly whenever someone talks about something I feel particularly sensitive about I try to remember the first monologue of Helena in a midsummer night's dream maybe you can try remembering your favourite song's lyrics or a film scene? It's stupid but it does help!

[Eliana09]

Yeah I guess so. I just don't want people to question why I leave the room whenever it's brought up. But yeah, that sounds like it might be a goo distraction, thank you!