need support

[carla1983]

im feeling so low im in my bedroom crying I don't feel able to go to speak to staff I would not know where to start

[Sketchy]

What about writing it down? Are you in hospital? When I was in hospital I found it hard to speak. Writing it down helps.

Please try to reach out to someone. You shouldn't have to suffer alone.

[carla1983]

yes im in a rehab hosptial sounds good to write it down but dont know who to give it to. wish G was here cause i feel comforble with giving it to him. i come back downstairs am in quiet room everyone watching football! had meds so hope they will kick in soon

[Cacoethes]

Sorry you're having such a hard time Carla *hugs*

G is usually around on weekends isn't he?

Have you got anything to do in your room, like drawing or listening to music?
x

[carla1983]

my room is a mess i hate looking at it let alone be in it. im on hourly obs thoughout the night due to not sleeping but it dont help with a torch being shined in my face every hour! my eating is going downhill i hope i lose weight i put to much on and am the biggest i ever been i hate it there a new girl here who is very anroexia which is getting to me i want to be the size she is

[carla1983]

still stuggling

[carla1983]

is anyone around?

[Cacoethes]

what's up lovely?

[carla1983]

Feelings are all over the place one min I'm hypo the next I'm in tears staff mentioned about being hypo and wanted to know what was going on but I don't have a clue I hate the feelings I'm getting I'm trying so hard to keep safe but it's getting harder every minute

[Cacoethes]

G is back this week I think. Could you have a chat with him about how you've been feeling?

Are you doing any of the groups during the day? xx

[carla1983]

I been taken out some of the MBT groups due to lack of joining in and falling alseep G back now we had chat don't feel any better.

[Cacoethes]

Are there any other groups you could take part in?

They can be pretty strict about the MBT groups, but it seems a bit harsh to take you out of some of the groups, especially as you're on Clozapine now and I know how sedating it is....

What do you think would help right now? x

[carla1983]

Went on leave which helped doing normal things feeling a little better but still unsure what to do with myself my bedroom is so untidy I can't get the strength to tidy it but I hate living in mess

[Cacoethes]

Could you try and do a little bit of tidying?

I always hate the idea of cleaning up, but it's not so bad once I get started and I always feel better for it.
x

[carla1983]

feeling low again im glad its friday can stay in bed at weekend