I can't do this anymore

[yoyogirl]

Hey all too much has happened to me over past few months and I have been really thinking about ending it soon I feel like I can't stand being here and I can't go on everyday is the same old stuff an really I have enough I try to distract lots and lots and i do it religiously but I can't cope with all this bullshit happening I can't get through each day I am struggling. Please help me

[yoyogirl]

It's was the day things started to go down hill for me I made the worst decision of my life to go to uni and quit my job and and then on the 14th October 2011 I was attacked and this caused me so many problems I began dropping out of college had panic attacks my restricting behaviours started up again and basically every thing kicked off and I feel responsible it was also the day the I was told at previous uni I couldn't do the degree course in social work even though I had got an unconditional offer they assumed I had my maths at gcse due to my age even though I told them I hadn't

[yoyogirl]

Now it's 2013 I can't cope with staying alive anymore I'm just body with heart and lungs that's i feel lifeless like my life ain't worth living

[Patent Pending]

It's good you've reached out here.

Do you have any support at the moment?

I know it can seem like mistakes are the end of the world but you can always return to studying at a later date etc when you're recovered.

Is there anything in your life right now which you enjoy or that gives you a little hope? Even if it's just something small.

x x x

[yoyogirl]

I just have the people at mind, online and my parents and I don't feel I need to ring crisis yet

[yoyogirl]

I am trying my hardest to take my mind off it but its not always working

[yoyogirl]

I am also gonna look into funding for my other route and I am gonna phone them on monday morning to discuss my options.

[talaiporia]

Hi Ellie. I don't wish to make things worse, but have you thought about looking into other things that aren't uni? It just seems like recently you've got your hopes up a few times only to have them dashed, and I wondered if perhaps, instead of diving right in with uni, you might be better off looking for a part-time job or volunteering in that field instead?

[yoyogirl]

That's what I'm doing at the moment

[yoyogirl]

I am gonna apply for 2014 entry that way I will be better by then