sydneyrose
08-06-2011, 10:42 PM
I have mood swings like crazy. I'm happy one minute, loving life, then a week later I am contemplating suicide. I take medication for what I was told was anxiety, but it doesn't do much. I've been taking it for 5 years also so it probably has no effect on me at all, it's also a low dosage. I can't deal with stress right, whenever I get stressed I have a major mood swing and freak out. When I get mad, it turns into rage which I can't control. I'll punch myself in the thigh, arms, and pull at my hair, scream. Then when I calm down, I'll be throbbing and red and wonder why I got so mad over something so stupid and little. When I have a mood swing something obviously triggers it, but it can be the smallest thing. Anything to make me moderately upset turns into a giant thing with crying, rage, suicidal thoughts, punching myself. Then literally anywhere from 10 minutes-3 hours later I'm perfectly fine and don't even know why I freaked out. It's starting to scare me, I don't want to punch myself in the leg over not having enough food in the house, or pull out my hair because my sister said something stupidly mean. Any ideas as to what is happening to me? Also, I'm 18 years old, and I take birth control for acne, I don't know if it affects my mood swings, but it's ortho tri-cyclen lo. Even without the birth control I still have mood swings. This isn't something that happens around that time of the month either, it's whenever, all the time.