BPD and having a job - functioning?

[stolen_innocence]

I started a job a few weeks ago (I've posted a while ago) and at first struggled but now everything is actually good? I'm functioning (have bpd) and getting on v well @ work and i think im even happy? thing is on my days off i feel empty and disconnected and it hits me over again. do you function more with a job?

[Sunshine]

well i havent got a job, but i just started uni and have bpd so its kind of similar and i find when im at uni actually doing the work i am fine and even happy but when i think about going in or am at home on my day off i am really sad and unhappy and want to hurt myself! i feel disconnected from life and i been kind of dissocating a lot (which i never used to do)! i took the day off today because i didnt feel well and now i just dont want to go back at all! its annoying having to fight with myself knowing i will enjoy it and be so disapointed in myself if i quit now.

sorry i havent got any advice
x

[startingagain]

Yes because it doesn't give me time to think.

[whirlpools]

I think that's true. I can't identify in quite the same way, having been out of work/education for quite some time, but I find that the days that I motivate myself to do things are better than the days where I hide away at home.

Unfortunately you can't distract yourself from your feelings 24/7, because eventually, when you stop, things will crash down on you. But you can work through your feelings with a therapist.

[startingagain]

I find it really exhausting and my psychologist is forever encouraging me to keep at it. However, at the weekend I collapse and just sleep most if it away. I also do that on my time off, so at least I'm earning a good wage if nothing else...

[Buttercup.]

I think a job is a great way to structure your days and can be a positive thing. I miss having a job. My main problem with having the job was when I'd be having increased symptoms of my BPD or a not so good day, I would either call in sick or was unable to give my best work. It's kind of a bittersweet thing.

I quit because my therapist wanted me to focus more on treatment since I'm in a cycle of going in and out of the hospital. So I wasn't the most reliable employee. My therapist recommended that to add structure and some kind of fulfillment to my life that I do volunteering. It's similar to a job you just don't get paid and it is okay for me to take days off as I need them.

Good luck!!

Jess x

[MrsCoulter]

I have BPD and am not functioning in my job at all.

[Soviette]

Well done on holding down a job. That's an achievement for someone that struggles with their mental health and it will benefit you long term. But to be honest, it's because you're distracted from your 'illness'. On your days off what do you do? If you tend to sit at home, it is highly likely that your thoughts, etc. bother you, so perhaps you need to find more distraction in your life. Don't work 24/7 that is quite unhealthy too, but perhaps go on trips or hang out with your friends more, etc.

Sounds like you need more 'go' really.

[x-dying-inside-x]

I find its college and work that holds me together most of the time.
I'm not doing so good atm so im off work, but normally college and work holds my life together.

Well done on the job.
xxx