Uh oh...unprepaired

[Adril]

I knew I was going to hear from the couciler but when i got the letter today asking me ring and book and appoment my brain just suddenly paniced and i had all these flash backs of things in the past and i was also thinking if i ring and make this appointment thats it, its like admitting complete that I cant cope... I know its not bad to admit that we need help but what if ill never be able to cope...im just not sure I can do all this...bare my soul and my mind... Erugh:( Hugs?

[GoldDustReturnz]

Howre you feeling now, love?

[Adril]

Im so so atm, im at the doctors on tuseday for my usall check up but i couldnt get a counciler appointment till the 6ths which really sucks because im starting to get worse with my irrational thinking and its harder and harder to stop myself from worrying and to calm down after my panic attacks but i just have to wait i suppose, im still mega nervous about talking to some1 but im so f-'d up I guess i have to just bite the bullet or things are just gonna get worse. Thankyou for asking how im doing, it always give me a slight boost when people are conserned about be, i feel less...pathic and insane really...