Dissociating a lot.

[Skye37]

I've been dissociating a lot lately(more than I usually do, I mean). I keep "coming to" with new SI and having no idea how it got there. I feel really scared and really alone. I don't really know why I'm posting this, I just really need some sort of support. please... :crying:

I hate this. I hate that for my entire life I've never really been "here" at all. It's so frustrating. It's like, what's the point of even bothering if I'm never going to remember anything significant about my life anyway? :(

[PassedExpectations]

can't help...

but

*gigantic enormous super soft squishy hug*

[Skye37]

Thank you so much. *hugs back*

[Fraction]

Dear Skye,

I'm so sorry that you are going through such a hard time. We often "come to" to find that we have SHed and I know how distressing and disorientating it can be.

If you ever want to talk, PM us any time :-]

[when.will.it.end]

Hey,

I can completely relate. I've been dissociating really badly lately. I know it must be really really scary for you, feeling like you've not got any control and not remembering what's happened. Do you have any professional support? Have you tried any grounding techniques? I'm starting to realise that no matter how out of it I feel I'm always connected a little bit and that's the part you have to hold onto. Even if I'm disconnected emotionally there is a bit of me that enjoys some fun stuff otherwise I wouldn't do it.

*huge hugs*

I don't have much more to say, just I know it sucks.

xx

[Skye37]

Thanks for the support everyone, we really appreciate it.

We just found a psychiatrist who's willing to help us, and she's going to find us a decent therapist to help us with the DID stuff.

Just nervous, scared, panicky... etc... I/we really just hate this and want to disappear. :(

[Fraction]

Dear Skye,

We're so glad to hear that you have found a psych and that she will help you to find a therapist with experience. Please don't be scared! Things are looking up for you, it will get better.

We are struggling with dissociating a lot too and it relates to the trauma work we've been doing - they do say that it gets worse before it gets better. But it WILL get better, hang in there.

Thinking of you and here any time.

Obadiah & Co