Going to the doctors

[TheGiantPanda]

Going to the doctors later, not sure what i'm going to say though, i'm not sure i want to go back through the CMHT (discharged in May) but i know i need some support because i'm struggling, cutting a lot, fantasising about death a lot and don't feel i have any outlet to how i'm feeling other than cutting.

I guess i've just answered my own question :whistling: i'll just tell her what i've just written. I was thinking of coming off the olanzapine because i've been on some kind of anti-d or mood stabiliser for over 9 years constant, was interested how i'd be without but after today i'm thinking they may need to be tweeked, hmmm, bit nervous, don't like asking for help, or that when i have a good day i feel like a fraud for receiving it. hmmm

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Yes, you should tell her what you have written :)

I hope it goes well

[no point]

don't like asking for help, or that when i have a good day i feel like a fraud for receiving it.

I feel exactly the same.
Just try to tell them what you have written here. Good luck:)

[TheGiantPanda]

Thankyou

I went to the doctors, she was very understanding, she suggested CMHT but i told her that i didn't find DBT any good and that i don't want my new therapist bangin' on about DBT skills. i told her that nobody has ever sat down with me and discussed the weird thoughts and beliefs i have on the subject and stuff, she said to leave it with her and that she'll see if i can get some psychology, somebody to delve into my mind a bit more than just stickin a plaster over feelings. so i feel pleased with that outcome. :)