I can't do this..sorry.

[Chloe.]

I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Neither does my family. My mom has bipolar and she should understand, but she doesn't. I have severe anxiety and bipolar. I can't even go to school without having a breakdown. She doesn't know what to do with me. She said she was just going to send me back to the hospital, because she can't deal with me anymore. I've missed so many days that they might kick me out of school. Oh, joy. I don't know why I'm so depressed and anxious. I'm on medicine and my doctor won't change it. She's convinced that the meds are working and she won't listen to me. I'd like to change doctors, but my mom won't let me. So, I guess I'm stuck like this. I don't want to be here anymore. It's too much. I'm sorry for posting. I haven't been supporting people as much as I should. I just really don't know what to do anymore. Just eff it. Eff everything. :/

[suspendeddisconnect]

*hugs chloe* i'm sorry your mom isn't being understanding right now. but i think i remember you saying you live in the u.s., and at least where i live in the u.s., if you did go back to the hospital you would almost for sure get new meds. could you ask your mom why she won't let you change doctors? explain you're trying to get yourself better, and you can't do that if your doctor refuses to listen to you. hang in there. things will get better.

[Chloe.]

Thanks.
It's because this doctor is on her insurance and the others are too expensive.

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oh i see. insurances suck. surely there's another doctor on her insurance? could you also talk to the doctor you have again, explaining you REALLY do not feel well? what's their reason for not changing your meds if you're expressing that you're not doing good?

[Chloe.]

I have no idea.
All the doctor cares about is that I'm in school.
And when I'm not, she lectures me.
I don't want my mom to go to court, but I just feel like complete crap.

[suspendeddisconnect]

Could you sit down with your mom and explain how you feel? Or have you done that already? Maybe the two of you together could talk to the doctor about a change in meds.

[Chloe.]

I have.
She doesn't care.

[Warrior_x]

Hey bubby sis.
I wish I knew the words that would help you but I don't =[
I just want you to know I am always here to listen. Any time. Day or night. (Especially now that I have Skype)
You are an amazing person and CAN get through this.
I love you lotslies
<3 <3 <3 <3

[Chloe.]

Thanks, hun. (: