fighting an urge.

[[Pixie]]

im in recovery from my ed.
but i can not beat the B/P urges.
i just cant.
i have no will power.
I Havent exactly binged, but ive eaten ALOT of chocolate. & i NEED to be sick and get it all out.
im trying not to think about it.
but this urge is really really strong.

& now ive got a stupid idea in my head..
that cutting then purging would be the best thing for me to do right now.
so now im fighting two urges.
im struggiling so much.
i dont know what to do.

[im_the_kid_that_falls]

how about doing neither! :)
Talk yourself out of it, remind yourself why you are recovering, and keep yourself busy!
I would say eat chocolate, but probs not the best idea right now! :(
Stay safe hun
x-x-x-x

[PassedExpectations]

really, like said above, the best thing to do is get yourself really busy... if that means art, excercising, dancing to your favorite music, doing a really hard sudoku, crossword, or jigsaw puzzle.... get going on it. There is a huge list of ideas on the fun and distractions page. Good Luck... though you don't need it, its all inside you.
*hugs*

[suspendeddisconnect]

*hugs* purging and cutting won't help you. it's ok to eat chocolate sometimes. maybe you could go exercise (not too much) to feel a little better about eating the chocolate. even going for a walk can help you feel better when you think you've eaten too much. (though i'm sure you aren't fat or anything, walking can just help you feel a bit better about yourself if you feel active) hang in there.