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[Clover]

nothing **** it...................

[lovelybones]

what's going on?

[Stellata]

We're listening when you're ready to tell us what's happening for you right now. If you let us know some more we can better help you through this tough time.

[Clover]

Why should i try to help someone who just said she didnt want nothing to do with me called me names. Cant even try and talk to her. i didnt do nothing. I mean we only just came back from hoilday.

She saids shes trying to push people out her live not let people in. she just met this boy she seems happy with. So now coz his in her life that mean i've had to go. If she pushing people away so she can die then fine. but waiting for that call is killing me. I'm meaningless to her there was no need to call me them things i dint do nothing. I'm stuck i mean do i just do what she wants and gives her a bigger reason to hate me. Or do i stay try and talk to her and risk her getting me done by the cops like she said. I cant win want ever i do. I deleted all her numbers and ****. So now i have no idea if she alive or dead. I ment to be going up for her birthday but she dont want me ment to be going on hoilday next year can only ****ing dream of that happening.

AHHHHHH you know what **** it.

[Stellata]

I get that you feel rejected and discarded by her, and intensely angry. But in some part of you you also care about her?

[Clover]

yep but she dont see that. I mean if i done something to piss her off then yeah i could understand it. But it just coz she feel like it.

How could i not care about her we been though so much together

[Stellata]

Sad thing is, you can't change the way she thinks. But you can be true to yourself. I understand how hard it is to hold all these conflicts.

[jellytot]

clover shes not worth it shes obviously an idiot and waster and a no good waste of time

[Clover]

maybe so but it dont stop it from hurting

[jellytot]

donna i'm sorry angel .... i really am I am going through a really **** **** time at the moment I dont want anyone to be near me ..... I'm sorry ILY