I cant do this! *Urgent please someone reply!*

[LozzyGirl]

I cannot do this!
I just cant!
Whats the point?
Whats the damned point in trying anymore? I have no reason to be alive. Nobody cares they all just use me.:crying:
I wanna die!
I dont know what happens when someone dies but wherever I go I'll be with my nan! I miss her so much.:crying:
I cant take this!
I hate life!
I. CANNOT. DO. IT!
End of!
I cant!
I wanna die! I wanna die so bad.
This is horrible and I hate it!
Im so close to doing it! Nothing is scaring me anymore! I used to be scared to die but not anymore!
I WANT IT ALL TO BE OVER! I CANT DO THIS!

[~hunni~]

Hey, I'm sorry things are so bad for you right now. Is there something that's happened to trigger these feelings? If you can post about what's going on, people might be able to give you more support.

The fact that you've posted suggests to me that you don't really want to hurt yourself, but right now you can't see a way forward. But that is only right now - and I know it's hard, I know that it feels impossible, but right now will change. This is not the way that you're going to feel forever. There is future, there are better things ahead of you and however much it hurts right now, the pain will subside.
Please stay safe
xxx

[LozzyGirl]

What triggered it was my friend sitting round my house, going on and on about how shes going the doctors tomorow because her mum thinks she has a ED (I think she does too) and she talked about it going on and on. And it made me feel fat. Fat and worthless and weak. And because of that I wanted to cut and then eveything just got worse and worse. I ended up feeling suicidal because I hate my life! I hate me!
Sorry :/
I dno why I feel so bad.

[Stellata]

Maybe you're jealous of her in some way?

[LozzyGirl]

I suppose I am kindaa.
She is succeeding where I failed.
You see I was loosing weight a while ago.. It didnt get to the point where I had to go to the doctors or anything.. I wouldnt even consider it a bad thing.
But she hasnt given up. And I did. Like everything else in my life I gave up.
My life is going nowhere and I know it. I dont stand up against the things that scare me I only run away from them and hide. Pretty soon im going to have nowhere to hide.
Im sick of life!

[LozzyGirl]

Someone reply please!
I feel really upset again tonight.

[I.Heart.And]

What is it that you feel you should be standing up against?
I know what you mean about feeling used, you deserve to be treated well.

[gotta-breathe]

*hugs and support*
i'm sorry youre going through such a hard time right now.
sometimes it feels like the only way out is dying. because its the only way to escape.
but dying is permanent. and nobody wants to see you go away forever.
please stay safe.

[LozzyGirl]

I should be trying to get over my anxieties, I should be atleast trying to stop cutting. But Im not. I cant. I always run away from my problems, never stand against them. Like when I was being bullied. I left the school, I was really anxious at my next school, so I stopped going. I got bullied again at the school after that. So I stopped going. And here I am anxious as hell about going to school.
Dying would be nice. Better for everyone. Nobody would have to put up with my **** anymore. Not even me. I know its basicaly taking the easy way out but I suppose thats me. I always take the easy way out the the weak wimp i am.