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26-06-2007, 01:03 PM
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dizzy dyke
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: E.Sussex
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Triggering (ED) - In the trenches
I feel the anorexia has me again. I wasn't fighting against it beforebut it had seemed to quieten a bit I had gained weight, due to greedyness and medication. So I stopped the meds and now I'm falling big time with head ****.
I am feeling so horribly fat and greedy and weak. People say oh you can fight against it and you done well before. But when? Each time I have fought I have failed and it has hit me worse each time. I have had anorexia for 15 years and it is part of me, I was a child before this and ever since I was 15 it has been with me. It has become a big part of my personality. I do not know me as an adult without AN.
I just let it get me. I can not fight again. Not no more.
What with all the other **** going on this is the only thing I know is MINE.
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I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams.
i'm just gonna ask where they're going,
and hook up with them later.
Previously Kelpie
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26-06-2007, 05:02 PM
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Will gladly climb your walls if u meet me halfway
Join Date: Feb 2006
Location: USA
I am currently:
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I feel like I could have written this myself, all excpt that I have suffered for a shorter amount of time. So, you are not alone. I have no idea who I am without ana, but in recovery I am beginning to learn so it is not impossible.
No matter what thoughts are in your head, you CAN beat this. I know you can. Others tell you that you can because they believe in you. You may have "failed" at recovery time before, but with each failure you stood right back up and tried again, and that shows immense strength. Maybe you just werent ready for the recovery, because I think that it only works when you are ready. And when you are ready, you have a TON of people here that will stand by your side and cheer you on.
Youre worth recovery
Youre worth living a full, beautiful, and amazing life.
Take care and stay strong
x Kate
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26-06-2007, 06:34 PM
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dizzy dyke
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: E.Sussex
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But I would have to MAKE a new person, new personality, it would be like a fake.
I dunno if I could even begin. I was a child before this. This is me as an adult.
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I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams.
i'm just gonna ask where they're going,
and hook up with them later.
Previously Kelpie
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