little nervous now.
im 30 years old and was sexually and physically abused by my father continuously from the ages of 7 and 12. i have been in and out of therapy for most of my adult life. i take many meds and live on disability as the PTSD symptoms are extreme.
some days are better than others. i dont feel the need to explain flashbacks or nightmares to you guys as you already know what im talking about.
i just want to know from some of your experiences....does it EVER get better???
ive been trying so hard for so long and im really tired.
please be honest.
thank you for reading.
love to all
*hugs* i'm sorry you had to go through all that..but i'm in the same boat as you right now, i was abused by from 3-24 and have only just started therapy, and i must say at first it got a lot worse, flashbacks and memories etc, but they said that was to be expected. and yes it's painful remembering everything i already feel a sense of relief, i'm not alone and it's not just my little secret anymore. but i'm sure it will take years to get to a place where i can have a normal life. i dont think it will ever fully go away sweetie, but yes i believe it can get easier. hang in there, stick with the therapy. i'm sorry i couldnt help more.
stay safe xoxoxox
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Hey Rachel (is it? hope I've got the right person)
It does get better, with time and effort; I've seen you around Vets and it does sound like you've been making a huge effort for ages.
I was getting better.. less bad days, more average days (and the occasional good day). I'm just having a bit of a spazz right now, but I know that things were getting a little better, and I hope that I can get back to that stage. Maybe a bit further, who knows. I'm certain it can get better though, even if it doesn't feel like it for so long.
take care sweetie
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
Welcome to RYL! Well done for posting, I know it can be a bit scary, but we're all lovely people here. And we're here for you if you need some to rant/poke/whatever.
Hang in there, as it says in your avatar, just keep walking. Just take it one step, one day at a time.
Yes, it can get better. PTSD can be treated with a good therapist (and I haven't done EMDR but I've heard really good things about it, and I have also been in a DBT group for a year and half which has helped a lot) and depression and anxiety etc are also treatable. Sometimes I feel like "why bother" because it can be such a struggle to make it through the day in one piece, and I feel like I've been that way for so long... but then I see progress and I get on the right meds and I'm not depressed and it's wonderful. I think I will always feel sad about the past... people who should have loved and supported me hurt me, and that's not something you just "get over." It's always a part of who you are-- but it's only part. You were hurt when you were a kid and you didn't have a choice about that, but you're an adult now, and you get to decide what kind of relationships you have, and with whom. There are still things out of your control, including other people, and recovery doesn't go in a straight path up, but things do improve and I think there's enough choice for you as an adult to make it worth your while. That's my long-winded answer to your short question, anyway... : )