So that you can feel free from it all! So that one day you will not get those urges anymore. So that we learn that keeping in control doesnt rely on blood and pain. And finally... because you dont deserve to cut, you dont deserve the pain or the scars. You deserve to give yourself freedom from this.
Chels? I dont know about you but one leads to another.
I guess when youve been without chocolate for so long you lose the urge to eat it, you dont crave chocolate so much....its addictive.
I think cutting is an addiction too in that its the only way we know how to cope. We use it to calm our thoughts and feelings for a while until they start to run riot and yet again the urge comes forth. Its all about learning how to cope with those thoughts and feelings so we dont get that urge and craving again and again. God knows how though!
God knows a load of crap is coming out of my head right now.
Im just so sorry you too find your self in that place.
Hugs and squidges my dear
Try to keep safe
xx rowie xx
So, I tried going for a walk.
I tried distracting myself.
My brother and my nephew came round with their Wii so I played on that a bit.
I txt'd 2 of my closest mates, let's just say neither were exactly helpful. I txt'd some not so close mates too, just to see how they were and stuff.
Nothing fuckign worked.
I tired drawing on myself in marker pen, snapping a rubber band against my wrist.
I then rummaged through our kitchen draws and got the sharpest knife - it did fuck all.
Getting pretty desperate by now so I txt'd one final person.
Quarter of an hour later it was done.
And I don't regret it one bit.
In fact, I'd quite like to do some more.
Exams are more important than a few cuts.
I've found that when I cut, it only makes the urges worse. I mean, it helps for a little bit but then it's really awful and I have to go through way worse urges before I get back to where I was before I cut.
Also, there are going to be really stressful situations. Do you want to cut and lose your confidence in being able to deal with those without cutting?
Hope this helped.
The trouble with killing yourself to punish someone is that at the end of the day, they're still alive and you're still dead.
Hon, I can't tell you because I'm not sure myself... Just please be safe when you do it ok? Take care of yourself.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
You said it yourself, you'd like to do some more...so you weren't going to satisfied with "just one" that's why you must refrain form giving in, because fi you don't you'll be cutting numerous times a week or a day and for what really, mostly for reasons and things not as important as your health, not to mention your body. You can't do just one because you'll want more and this kind of thinking will only lead you to increase the number of times, and even the lenght and depth of the cuts, you hurt yourself instead of decreasing it. That's how the downward spiral starts, stop it before you reach bottom.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
You should stay cut free because every time you cut a baby bird falls out of a tree!
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
aww honey, i know exactly how you feel, i really do, i always wonder what the point is, if any at all.
but there is, somewhere there is a point.
to be free from all this, to get to the point where we dont think about, dont need it, cant get by without wanting it, to be 'free', to be 'ok' so you can feel strong and proud that you dont need it. and so you can get a collection of recovery bracelets!! :)
things will be ok, things will be better
im here if you want to talk, youre not alone
good luck with your exam
keep fighting hun, you can get through this
love lora x xx
I scream for the sunlight, or a car to take me anywhere, just get me past this Dead and Eternal snow.
And if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere, just take me there, and lie to me and tell me it’s gonna be Alright.
- Conor Oberst