I know They are watching me, monitoring my every move...
And I can't get the Voices to stop. They are so loud and constant. I can't think straight. It's been about a week of this plus the lead up and I don't know how the hell to get it to stop.
I've barely been eating and I feel so weak mentally and physically.
... I don't know what to do.
Sorry for posting.
Last edited by rara avis : 14-03-2012 at 12:45 PM.
I see my psychiatrist every two weeks. I told him a little bit last week and he said to keep an eye on it, he was worried I was 'relapsing'. I see him again next Friday. I just don't know how to manage.
I'm only leaving the house when I absolutely have to for uni and appointments. The rest of the time I stay in my room hiding from the Spybots. Sometimes I listen to my music really loud to try and drown out the Voices, when I remember to...
I really don't want to go into hospital. I want to avoid it if at all possible.
Today I managed to go to class but wasn't able to take much in, i was followed all the way there and I just can't get the voices to stop.
I really think you should see your doc or go to hospital as you sound really distressed.
I came into hospital nearly two weeks ago with similar symptoms as you. I feel safer from the voices.
I really hope you can reach out for help.
Thinking of you love and hope you get an appointment with the psych really soon! You don't deserve to be going through this xx
"I don't think there's anything on this planet that more trumpets life than the sunflower. For me that's because of the reason behind its name. Not because it looks like the sun but because it follows the sun. During the course of the day, the head tracks the journey of the sun across the sky. A satellite dish for sunshine.
Wherever light is, no matter how weak, these flowers will find it. And that's such an admirable thing. Such a lesson in life."
Oly, it's not too bad, I'm seeing him today, Friday is finally here. We'll see what he says.
I managed to complete one of my assignments yesterday plus get quite a bit done on the other two. I had my headphones in while I studied which helped. I hope I can manage to do some more today as one of them is due tonight.
I'm doing an animal sciences course and one of the subjects requires you to provide enrichment to an animal so today I'm getting rats for that string of assignments. I'm excited about it but it means I have to leave the house which is bringing up more fear.