Fear of gynecologist after rape
I was molested as a child on multiple occasions. As a teen on birth control, multiple doctors recommended pelvic exams which I refused. Last year I was date raped and recently I was diagnosed with PTSD. I have had consensual sex on many occasions with a total of three different partners and presently my boyfriend and I are sexually active. But I just can't get past the idea of having a pelvic exam . I think it's because I have been taken advantage of and viewed unwillingly in a sexual way so many times that I don't see how a person can see me naked and it be precessional. I see a therapist and have for two years but I haven't gotten any better. My health provider starts pelvic exams at 21 and now I'm 20...and terrified of having one. Help?