honey its perfectly normal to want to sleep with people who you think are attractive. sex and stuff like that isnt always horrible and dirty when its with the right person.
im sorry you felt like you had to harm yourself like that, because i guess in a way you could be doing it as a sort of self harm thing. if you think this is the case then maybe you could and think of some things that would make you feel better instead of punishing yourself? small things like reading a magazine cover to cover, or snuggling down in your bed and watching a movie or something. i know theyre really crap ideas, but hopefully you get the kind of stuff that i mean.
thanks for your reply, im not feeling as bad about what happened as i did the other day, because i was talking to the guy and i know now that it wasnt just about sex that he is into me... so i guess i feel a tiny bit better about it..