Definitely don't feel guilty for posting, you are always welcome here.
When you say that your boyfriend gets angry, is he angry at the boy who did it, or angry that you mention it?
How did things end with CAMHS? If I remember correctly, there was mention of EMDR but you never really completed any formal trauma work; if that's the case, would it be something you would consider now?
I'm confident that you will think that is an absolutely horrendous suggestion, as I imagine you're looking for a way to not think about it, rather than a therapy focussed on thinking about it (and you were always a very reluctant service-user in the first place!). However, I don't think there is a quick fix solution to the fact that you're struggling now and may well struggle next March too and at times in between.
So I guess the decision to make is to decide whether you can tolerate this level of distress and hope that each year it gets a lot easier or whether you are willing to go through the stress of fully addressing your trauma, in the hopes that it makes things a lot better.
Out of interest, since starting uni have you sought any sort of professional help for any of your difficulties?
Thinking of you <3
P.S. Sorry if that didn't make sense; I am legit half asleep and I had lots of thoughts but not quite the ability to articulate them in paragraph form!
P.P.S. Have I ever told you how proud I am of how far you have come?
Last edited by Pi.R^2 : 19-03-2015 at 09:03 PM.