I'm not usually one to make these threads because usually I don't really know what to say.
However; today is Jo's birthday and she's really struggling with things right now, so I was hoping you guys could give her a few birthday wishes/general words of support through this difficult time?
I thought this would be better here so this is the main forum Jo uses :)
Jo. We all love you so very much, and you've done so amazingly well so far. Please, don't give up fighting and know you're not alone. You're one of the strongest people I have ever met.
*leaves super birthday hugs*
I love you.
awww Katie thank you for this thread and your kind words of support i really dont feel like i deserve it, but thank you. *big hugs*
id like to say a huge thank you to everyone for my birthday wishes and your support, im lost for words thank you.
yesterday was considerably hard as it triggered some awful memories, but i got through it thanks to Kathy. im feeling very low and quite desperate at the moment, which is never good for me but im trying hard to fight the thoughts and urges.
i so need my head and memories to stop.
*curls up tight*
*massive safe hugs for Jo*
Sorry yesterday was so hard darling. You're doing amazingly to keep fighting.
If you ever want to chat I'm only a PM away [or just ask Kathy for my e-mail address].
x Katie x
im in a bad place today i feel like im loosing the fight, ive had barely any sleep due to nightmares, voices and severe urges and ive run out of energy now.
i dont much like the healing process if thats what all these memories are doing. right now i just want to curl up and die, ive got nothing left to fight with.
*curls up tight shaking*
*hugs Jo tight*
Sorry this seems so never ending for you. It will end though darling; there will be a time when the nightmares become less intense and the urges become less frequent. I believe in you. I know you can get through this.
*gives you a box of all the strength I have left* It's not much but I hope it helps.
How's it going talking about things with Kathy? Did you ever speak to your doctor again about it all?
*hugs you and rocks you slowly*
x Katie x
*hugs so tightly*
will it really really get better Katie? will the nightmares really become less intense because right now they are horrendous and the urges and suicidal thoughts are just getting stronger and stronger.
i dont no if i can do this anymore *takes the box of your strength* thank you.
talking to Kathy is going ok i think were taking it very slowly as i keep having panic attacks, but she says it will help in the end.
yes i did speak with my doctor shes given some medication and referred me for counselling and therapy but theres waiting lists. i dont no how long i'll have to wait, and all the meds do is knock me out but they dont stop the nightmares and that.
i just dont know how much more of this i can take, im so low and depressed and constantly fighting the bad thoughts. im exhausted.
im not coping so good just now. another terrible night with nightmares and panic attacks, im all out of energy now.
im trying so hard to fight and keep going but the memories and bad thoughts and urges wont let up, i feel so low at the moment im struggling to see a future.
im sorry for moaning
*hugs Jo tight*
No apologies love. It's not moaning. You're having a rough time of it and we're all here to support you <3
Things will get better Jo, I promise. I don't know when and I don't know how...but I know they will. In time.
If there is anything I can ever do to help, please just drop me a PM or email.
You're so strong Jo, I know you can get through this.
x Katie x
