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16-07-2008, 07:53 PM
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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so stupid
Last night i emailed the samaritans,
i have just read their reply, it has taken me this long to gain the courage to look, and i feel so sick and so nervous, my hearts going ten to the dozen, i feel so bare, i have never ever spoken to anyone about my sh before, in fact only my bf and best friend knows i ever did it (they dont know about current issues).
i feel so strange like any minute now someone will find out it was me and come and find me,
i want to cry over things that happened years ago,
sorry, just wanted to get my feelings out somewhere and here i know people wont judge me about it.
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16-07-2008, 07:54 PM
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#2
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Join Date: Sep 2005
Location: London area
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It's safe here.
It's ok to cry.
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16-07-2008, 07:56 PM
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#3
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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Thank you stellata,
i just dont know what to dxo with myself and my boyfriend is downstairs and i dont want him to see me cry because he will want to know why,
*deep breaths*
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16-07-2008, 08:11 PM
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#4
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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Thank you, logically i know they wont look me up but i have a deep routed phobia of people thinking im crazy, and i cant help but feel if people knew what goes on in my head that bad things will happen,
i feel a bit better now, less stressed now, until the next reply comes...
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16-07-2008, 08:16 PM
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#5
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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i really dont know,
(wants to cry again)
i might lose people, my job, my friends? people will think badly of me, im not really sure,
*breaths deeply*
people will make me talk about things i dont want to...im really bad at talking about emotions, online its a bit easier but in person its impossible,
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16-07-2008, 08:36 PM
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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do the insecurities ever leave?
i so worry that i will end up back where i was back then,
thank you so much for talking to me
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16-07-2008, 11:16 PM
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#7
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It's okay. I have a supersoaker.
Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: Over there and to the left
I am currently:
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Was it a good reply? *hugs*
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"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
- Dr. Seuss
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17-07-2008, 06:17 AM
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#8
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Bringing back the lost art of Sewing
Join Date: Sep 2007
I am currently:
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How are you now?
*hugs*
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My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
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17-07-2008, 06:19 PM
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#9
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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:) i have had several replies since last night and last night i was getting quite into talking to them,
i dont feel like it today, back to feeling its non of their business (i know i contacted them stupid me)
i may go back to it later and see how i feel,
thank you for your support :)
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17-07-2008, 07:32 PM
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#10
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: UK
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poo poo poo poo poo
i just did something stupid
talking to my boyfriend when for no particular reason i lifted my t shirt,
forgot what i did to it last night,
poo poo poo
*smacks head against desk*
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