This is why. I don't really feel able to talk to any of my friends about this stuff, mostly because I just worry about what they're thinking about me if I talk about this stuff. I generally find it easier to seperate that part of my life from them if possible. One of my close friends has already had to patch me up before I got to the doctors the last time I self harmed, so feel it'd be unfair to offload my crap onto them.
Things feel too tense at home to talk about this stuff much. I live with my boyfriend and I adore him, but he's generally being quite defensive at the moment and I feel like he just gets frustrated when I get upset or talk about this stuff.
I usually have weekly therapy but it's 4 weeks on, 1 week off - and this week happens to be the one week off. :P