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Old 31-03-2020, 08:03 PM   #241
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Is it any clearer what's going to happen yet?





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Old 31-03-2020, 11:22 PM   #242
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Just got back from a&e.
One of the day staff took me and still hasn't gone home yet.
It's all kicking off here now though for several reasons.
I wish I'd run away or something but I couldn't have done that to the day staff that stayed with me



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Old 01-04-2020, 12:18 AM   #243
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I don't think running away would help massively in the long run, sweet, but I can understand the feeling behind wanting to.

Have things calmed down there, now?



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Old 01-04-2020, 11:18 AM   #244
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Probably not
And I had no money or anything with me anyway so where would I have gone?

Yes it's settled down now
We just had a couple of people brought back by police who weren't happy about it and some new admissions who also weren't happy so it was all a bit mad.

I think I'm getting depressed.
I'm sleeping a lot and it's getting harder and harder to get dressed in the morning. I don't think I'll get dressed at all today.
I haven't been properly depressed in years.
It's this place



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Old 01-04-2020, 04:42 PM   #245
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I understand how being in hospital can make you depressed, especially with everything that is happening outside at the moment too. Please keep trying to get dressed etc, even if it's hard, I'm sure you could still do it and the achievements might lift your mood a bit. How have you been getting on so far today?





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Old 01-04-2020, 05:00 PM   #246
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Still not dressed and feeling very down.
They've given us a letter today to say the wards are being moved about so this ward will be closing and we will all be going to other wards.
If I'm classed as 'at risk' from covid 19 then I'll have to go to the ward I was on last time. Where the doctor forced me to have ECT so I'm really hoping I'm not classed as at risk.
So that's all very unsettling.
I hate it here but moving really isn't going to help matters.



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Old 01-04-2020, 06:34 PM   #247
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That's really scary and really stressful. Do you know when you'll find out where you're going and when you'll move?



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Old 01-04-2020, 07:06 PM   #248
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Nope. No one seems to know anything.
The nurses only just found out too so they don't know any more than we do at the moment.
Apparently it will happen in the next 1-2 weeks though



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Old 01-04-2020, 11:47 PM   #249
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Did you start clozapine again Becky? I’m sorry things are so shitty and uncertain right now. And sorry I have no helpful words to make it easier for you.





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Old 02-04-2020, 03:47 AM   #250
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This could be pure speculation, but I'd almost wonder if your normal consultant self isolating is more of a precaution or due to budget issues than her having been exposed? Also quarantine and self isolation have two different meanings, and if they're saying self isolating that's generally the precuationary version.

Again speculation, but if they're consolidating wards, maybe they're rotating staff to take time off to make sure they are all healthy? I know here (here being my state in the US) a lot of workers have been laid off or had hours reduced. So it could be that as well.

I would hope since you've spoken about some of your fears and been honest, they would be more likely to discharge you, or at least not feel like you need to have ECT if you do get transferred to your old ward.

Thinking of you. Uncertainty sucks.



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Old 02-04-2020, 10:10 AM   #251
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No. They won't start clozapine again because I keep randomly stopping it and it's too dangerous.
Thanks Emma

That would make sense Camden.
I think it is just precautionary as apparently she was feeling a bit unwell
They are changing all the wards functions it seems.
So this ward will become an elderly ward, everyone will be moved to pre existing female acute wards and one ward will be used for at risk patients. There's also a ward for people with covid 19.

I have ward round today but the consultant will only be on the phone so that will be difficult.
Can you even discharge people over the phone?



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Old 02-04-2020, 01:03 PM   #252
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I think there's been a lot of changes to healthcare recently. So I imagine it is possible they could discharge over the phone now. I know here they've passed a lot of laws pretty quickly to allow for widespread telehealth for mental health, medical stuff, and even for vets and dentists too to avoid as much in person stuff as possible.



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Old 02-04-2020, 02:57 PM   #253
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I really hope so.
I am so so close to returning to 2010 Beckie. Which is really not a good thing.
I was kept in picu for 7 months because I was too dangerous for anyone else to take. Picu is usually a 6 week stay max.
But I'm feeling all those feelings again.
I'm being abrupt with the staff. I'm swearing at them which isn't like me at all.
It's just all coming back and I don't know why.
I've been in hospital with no leave for longer than this before.



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Old 02-04-2020, 03:05 PM   #254
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It's good that you're recognising some changes Beckie (but not that those changes are happening), maybe being aware of them and trying to take a step back would be a good thing. You don't have to go backwards. I understand that all of this is really difficult for you but please use what positive control you have. Have you had ward round yet?





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Old 02-04-2020, 03:10 PM   #255
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I just feel so angry and frustrated all the time.
Everything is annoying me.
I can't take this place anymore.
I'm either going to end up killing myself or everyone else here!

Apparently literally everyone is being seen today to discuss the changes happening to the wards. So I don't even know if I'll have a proper ward round



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Old 02-04-2020, 03:15 PM   #256
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Please stay safe, it will only make thing worse if you act on these feelings. I can understand your anger and frustration, you're in a situation that would make most people angry and frustrated. Do you ever speak to family or friends on the phone?





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Old 02-04-2020, 03:35 PM   #257
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I threw a cup.

I don't like talking on the phone. The only people I will talk to on the phone are Jasmine, my mum and my nanny.
And I haven't really felt like speaking to anyone today.
I think I'd just burst into tears. Again. Because I just have.



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Old 02-04-2020, 06:22 PM   #258
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*hugs if ok*

You sound like you're experiencing lots of huge emotions. Does anything safe help to soothe you? Did you have your ward round?





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Old 02-04-2020, 06:29 PM   #259
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Thank you.
Hugs are very much appreciated

I had my ward round.
She said I wasn't ready for discharge and that I am delusional and unwell.
I started crying.
So I'm just going to have to kill myself here rather than outside.
This pandemic has to end. Too many people are suffering



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Old 02-04-2020, 07:05 PM   #260
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I 100% don't think this pandemic would end if you were to die. We'd just lose a lovely person. None of this is your responsibility and you have to try and take it off your shoulders and focus on getting well and moving forward. I understand that's hard to do though. You can get well and get home and get on with your life. I believe in you. Is there anything we or anyone else can do to make things a bit easier for you at the moment?





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