nice. very nice. i say i feel fat and ugly next to my friends who are like models. you're reply is that i'm not fat and ugly. and then i say okay i'm not - but i'm cubby and average at best. and your reply is "not that cubby, and average".... jee thanks boyfriend...
How the hell could you choose her when... when I LOVED you!!
I act like it doesn't hurt anymore, like everything is so fucking perfect now that your back and how i totally believe you when everytime you tell me how you love me and how you regret leaving but, you... you fucking LEFT me! I'm so scared you'll just leave again, but im only waiting for the inevitable now...
is it bad that I love you still? after all of this and before everything that is sure to come??
When I KNOW you'll leave again and that it will just hurt more...why did you have to leave me...i dont think id be able to handle anymore pain if you leave once again... i need you now...
i did love you......
i tell you i love you as passively as you tell me, trying to play it off like you mean it, succeeding when i fight against believing it... but my heart hears what it wants to hear and i cant tune you out...i lie to myself everyday saying i dont... i just feel broken inside.. and you're the only one that can piece me back together again...
will you? or will you leave me, and let me fall apart all over again...?
I wonder if you check on me the way I check on you.
I wonder if you think of me, as often as I think of you.
I wonder how much of the good you remember, and how much of the bad you resent me for.
I wonder if you understand.
I wonder if you could understand.
I wonder if you kept anything.
I wonder if you'd be in a better place if I had stayed.
I wonder if I'd still be here if I'd stayed.
I wonder if those were for me.
I wonder if you still want to see me, and I wonder what you think that would do.
I wonder so many things, but most of all I wonder if it would do me any good to know.
Haha really?? really?? What a beautiful speech there. Maybe you should question something. Do you really love her? Because if you did, I don't think you would have hooked up with me. I feel sorry for her though. She has absolutely no idea. You wanted to make sure I knew it didn't mean we were in love. Of course I laughed. I know what love is, I don't confuse it with sex. I know when I really love someone and when I don't.
Whatever it is, you can get through it. I promise.
i really wish id never told you about the abuse, because it feels like ive lost you again.
why did i have to open my mouth, why didnt i keep it to myself?
im sorry i told you, im so sorry.
i promise i wont mention it again, please dont leave me please.
I NEED YOU.
You took him away from me... this is YOUR fault...
I know you were trying to portect me, but all you did was cause pain and hurt...
You tore us apart, tore my heart apart...
Why did I even listen to you?! f course he loved me...
I hate you for this! I shouldnt, but how could I even forgive you?!
I hate you! I'll never forgive you! I loved him!!!
You took the one most important person in my life away from me...
Where would we be now if you hadn't of dont this..
At least now i know that ill never..
measure up to her.
Yeah, he's back.
But now I know,
Because of you,
That I'll never be good enough...
I know I'm a selfish self absorbed twat but does anybody care how hard it all is for ME? Trying to make you both happy, stuck in the middle, always upsetting someone, never good enough, just fighting to do what's right by everyone but knowing I'll NEVER succeed, all the while just wanting to destroy myself completely...
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
And fuck you. I hate you. DON'T UNDERMINE ME. Sometimes I actually know what I'm talking about. I hate this place. I don't belong here. I want to go home.
Oh, hilarious. I don't have a home. But I want to at least go back to the city where I nearly feel at home.
And you. Stop nagging me. Leave me the fuck alone. I don't care what you think, but you still have the complete power to control me.
We may not see eye to eye, but we can respect each other's opinions and find the truth in them.
Perhaps in those honest conversations, instead of demonising each other,
we might see each other as imperfect humans, doing our best. ~ Jodi Picoult
K, I miss you :[ Wish I still had your number so that I could text you....but maybe I'm supposed to go through college without you.
M, I miss you too..Even more...:[ I love how I always surprised you. :] I love how I never did it on purpose. :] I love how you loved it. :] If I ever marry someone, they're going to have to have an attraction like we had, but without a girlfriend already. Hah.
Whatever it is, you can get through it. I promise.
T-You told me you had luekemia the other day...And I felt a sick wretch in the bottom of my stomach. I feel horrible about this but...I don't know whether or not to believe you or not...This sounds horrible, but you've lied about so many other things. You told me you were Bipolor. You said you were depressed. You said you were gay. You told me your best friend had killed herself and then made it out to seem as if you were the one who had been set up...I thought we were similar...
You wouldn't lie about this, though, would you? You know how it hurts me whenever cancer is mentioned...You wouldn't lie to me about this, would you?
Deep down, I want it to be true...Because I want to believe you...I really do...If it's true, there's nothing we can do about it. We can hope for the best. I can be there for you again.
But if it's not true, then I'm kind of afraid I'm never going to want to be around you anymore...And you weren't so bad before the lying...
You're making me stressed out and triggered, T...I'm not even safe around you anymore...
"Hate can't drive out hate. Only love can do that."
-Martin Luther King Jr.-