Dunno if I should call. I want to. I really want to. But you would've called me... wouldn't you? If you felt like talking...? Unless you just didn't really have anything to say and didn't want to look too clingy. Which is kind of what I'm feeling now. I guess I could ask about the S***** thing? You could probably do with someone to talk to if that's come up today. Scrap what I said about you not being able to text, it's horrible. I could be sending you book quotes and making silly little jokes now but instead I'm angsting. I'll see you tomorrow anyway. 17 hours... I can cope without you for 17 hours can't I?
I'm still in love with you.
You said you loved me... where did that go?
You said you'd never hurt me... where did that go?
You said you loved me...
Apparently you don't love me as much as you said you did...
Hope you didn't lie today. Worry about you, still.
I can't help but look for signs, and I know how easy it is to hide stuff from others. I feel like you're on the edge of something bad, if you're not already there yet, and it's a horrible deja-vu.
I hate that you talk to her.
I know you were in love with her and I know the things you went through together made your bond strong.
But you say she's your past and that Im you're future, Then why wont you leave her in your past.
Why, when you know it hurts me?
Why cant she just not exist...
I'm sick and tired of being used.
Sick and tired of having my feelings handled as if they were nothing more than a plaything for your entertainment.
Sick and tired of people thinking I'm a weak, helpless being that can't handle myself.
Now you have to come here and insult my intelligence as well.
How pathetic do you think I am?
Do you think I can't see through your lies?
Do you think that you have me fooled like the others?
Using cheesy and elementary lines to make me think you actually consider me a human being.
When I know fully well that I'm nothing more than a piece of meat to you.
Your eyes reveal what your words hide.
I won't give you what you want.
I won't give in...
Perhaps you should work on your technique a little more.
You're not as smooth as you think you are,
Actually..you come off a bit desperate and pathetic,
This whole thing disgusts me.
I am really so unlovable?
I'll never meet someone NORMAL that actually likes me for my personality and what I have to offer .
I hate my life...What did I do to deserve so many humilliations??
I'm not stupid ... You say you're there for me but you ignore my texts and shit when I'm depressed... I didn't want to sleep with you on Wednesday but you wouldn't stop touching me .... Some friend ... You're a liar and you are probably worse than all the other guys .. At least they didn't pretend to care ... You're never around when I need you ... You're only around when I don't .