Are you getting any leave at the moment / is that even an option with the whole pandemic thing? If it's an option maybe instead of asking to go home you could also ask for leave? I get you want to go home but if they are too concerned, maybe it would be a good way to prove you can stay safe? If you think you can.
I know it's hard and I know you want to go home. But pretty sure just telling them that they are being horrible and you want to go home ultimately won't get you home faster. Where maybe if you can come up with other suggestions they might be more willing to work with you? I don't know. I'm sorry things suck and it's turning out to be a longer hospitalization than planned.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
No I don't have any leave at the moment.
People are going out, there is a shop within walking distance
They'd probably want me to have escorted leave at first anyway so I'd have to stay safe. If they grant me leave at all.
That is true.
Thank you
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Ward round was awful.
They want me to go to a specialist unit.
I'm not sure if they meant therapeutic community type thing or not. I couldn't really hear through crying.
But I've refused anyway.
I don't think they are going to force me
I don't think they can
Don't know what they're doing about meds
I think they said they'd speak to the pharmacist about increasing depot.
They said clozapine would be the best one but I can't go on it because I keep randomly stopping it.
They said something about injectable clozapine but I didn't think that was a thing.
They said I was very unwell which upset me even more.
I cried so much.
I asked about leave. The doctor said they'd have to discuss it with the team. I don't know why they couldn't just say yes.
Overall. I am not happy
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I don't have many words at the moment because I can understand why all of that would be really difficult and upsetting to hear and can take time to process. Maybe later on you can ask them for a written explanation of what they want over to see if you can understand better?
Thinking of you.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
I am sorry to hear that your ward round didn't go well Beckie. Idk what to say other than I care and have read. Also hugs.
Wannabe CPN : -)
"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
RIP Kat 4th July 1987- 11th June 2013
I don't think eating will do you or anyone else any harm, but I understand it can feel that way. I'm sure the doctor was bothered, maybe they felt there were other things to focus on though. Have you managed to speak to anyone about the outcome of the review and what it means for you?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I had another sandwich today.
It feels wrong
But I felt I was getting unwell from not eating for that amount of time. I was feeling dizzy and getting spots in front of my eyes.
But that could also be the contamination. I'm not sure.
I did ask a nurse to have a look on the notes to find out what happened. So she'll probably get back to me 6 hours later like with everything else.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I don't think the voices are reliable, sorry if that goes against your beliefs. I think they might be messing you around to get a reaction. You're better to listen to your human instinct. Anything you have done for the voices before has never been good enough for them but you have recovered without doing what the voices say. I think you've listened to them for long enough. You are in control of you and should be in charge. If you were in charge I'm sure you'd be choosing better things for yourself/your life, so try and take back that charge if you can.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
