i went to school today. Maybe that sounds a bit silly but that is defo something i've been struggling to keep going at the last yr or so =]... it was a good day as well [2wks free!]
Today (If i go out, not sure if i am yet)
I am throwing away my "stuff" i know ive said ive done this a load of times, but always end up getting more, but anyway, I'm chucking it all out.
And...
this is a major step for me, something ive been too scared to do in the past, hopefully, Im getting some bio oil, and next week am going to start trying to get rid of scars
2nd thing for me- I've be given a place on a 8 week taster course starting after easter. Its only 3 hours a week (the taster)but this a HUGE step for me after being in and out hospital constantly for the past 5years (been out since june 08) and never been well enough to ever consider going to college even if it's September. :) I'm proud of myself I honestly am. :)
I didn't cry myself to sleep last night for the first time in months, this meant i could face getting out of bed this morning and went to see some friends :)
well done guys, seeing other people making small steps too is really encouraging
'The nights of crying your eyes out give way to the days of laughter' Psalm 30 v 5
i wore shorts today around people who arent my roomates.
seems small, but it took more guts then i thought it would
"They say time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy
i've been wearing short sleeves lately + showing some scars... because of that 3people have admitted to me that they do/did SH including 1 person i've never spoken to really before. Don't know why but that gives me the strength to keep going.
-I've been fighting the urges all week and winning.
-I didn't buy blades yesterday even tho I really wanted to & could have because my friend who works at the shop wasn't even cashier -I am 6 weeks 3 days free as of today, even though I didn't think I'd make it through this past week.
oh and: I think I'm going to wear short sleeves tonight when I go out with a friend who doesn't know. =/ hope she doesn't notice but if she does....I guess I'll deal.