Not good
Had another incident this morning so I'm not allowed to change out of the seclusion outfit.
I'm so fed up and frustrated
Everything is annoying me
Just want to be left alone but they won't
Voices are bad from the moment I wake up to the moment I eventually fall asleep
I just can't do it anymore
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I have told them
They just keep pushing medication
Apparently I'll see a doctor today when they come back from break but I think that's just regarding whether I can change into normal clothes
The voices just keep saying I need to die
And I'm trying to but the staff keep stopping me
I've been in hospital for 2 months today and things are just getting worse
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I think hospital can be such a stressful environment and can make you frustrated and sometimes more unwell. It sounds like you're still fighting against the staff (not actual fighting) and I wonder how things might improve if you took their side rather than the side of the voices. I'm not saying it would be easy but it seems like a way forward rather than being stuck as you are. I'm sure that with time the voices would be around less and less and you'd have back the power.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
How about if you just didn't side with the voices so much? What would the Beckie before coming into hospital think about all this? The Beckie who is settled at home and going swimming and to SW etc?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Just wanted to say that some years ago i did a short course of therapy with a specialist in voices. He told me something that made a lot of sense and made me view my voices in a different way. He Said that often, the voices speak in symbols, like the dreams we have at night. So when the voices are telling you to die, they mean death in a symbolik way. They are trying to tell you that the way you are Living now is not good or sustainable for you, so you need to kill that way of life and start over in a new way.
He told me that the voices are mainly there to help us, guide us and not to cause damage to us. If we learn to interpret what they are trying to communicate, we can actually gain a lot of wisdom and support from them.
Just wanted to tell you. Hang in there, it gets better!!!
What the hell? Can you push to see an advocate or something? Even if you're not ready for discharge you should still be having ward round and getting seen.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
That's a good idea.
Apparently ward round is all messed up because of covid but everyone else was seen last week and some people were seen today so I don't know why they don't want to see me.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I’m guessing if they are short on time they will want to review the patients who’s presentation has changed in some way? Since you don’t feel able to take meds and are on a depot etc, maybe they think there isn’t much to review? What would you realistically like to change from having a review?
I doubt they will send you home, you are too unsafe at the moment. Your death would be devastating for your friends and family, it wouldn't save anyone.
I'm pissed off already because I asked if I could change into my normal clothes instead of the seclusion outfit but they said only the doctors can decide that when I see them.
They said yesterday that I'd see them yesterday so I don't believe that I'll see anyone today
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!