Can you ever truly recover?
I feel like no matter what I do, I always come back. I brought my life to a great place and yet after years, a breakup made me fall again. And now over and over again, every several months I find myself doing it again. I saw my ex boyfriend with his new girlfriend at a party (a small private work party - dunno why he had to bring her) and somehow managed to get over it, danced, had fun, but the second I got home I lost control and cut again.
Here I am, in a great place in life with the best friends one could ask for, 25 years old and thought everything was behind me, again having to hide bandaids. I now have the worst scars I ever had and I don’t know what to do when summer comes (I live in a very hot country and often even during winter it’s weird to be wearing long sleeves).
Can this ever truly stop? Can you ever stop the desire and more importantly the action? I don’t want my life to look like this.
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