Hey hun,
Im sorry im so late replying, I hope things are a little better today, it sounds like you're in a really tough position. I just want to say...five months, that is really huge achievment, I hope you're proud of yourself because that is really amazing.
I think if you are in that situation again you need to get out the way, have you got any friends or family you could go to? Even if its just to escape for a couple of hours to get away from the shouting. I think the idea of printing it off is a really good one, if you're not feeling safe and you're having thoughts like that about your dad I think maybe you could do with a break. How often does your dad stay with you? Maybe it could be organised so that you are away staying with someone else when he is there.
Do you mind me asking how old you are? Next time you're stuck in the house on your own I would really reccommend you calling either
Childline or
The Samaritans if you cant get away. If this is something that happens to you a lot I really think you should reach out for help, you shouldnt have to be in that position.
Take care hun and stay safe.
Aimee xx