Hey guys thanks for the hugs, much appreciated, I've just gone into a complete self-confidence black-out, but ignoring that fact I had a great day trip to London today to see a friend, we had great fun laughing at random wrongness in paintings in the national gallery :)
*hugs Shadowedsoul back* I'm here to help anytime you need me :)
*hugs Helen* hope the cbt works, when's the first session do you know?
Puppy SinClair is happily bounding around barking his little socks off at all the attention.
*hugs Arwen* I find that a real wierd sensation when I can't work out if I'm hungover or still drunk, hope you are doing okay.
*hugs Katie* YAY!!!! what are your plans now? you haven't been neglecting us, you've been busy :) don't drop out that's just the negativity talking, you can do this and you'll be great.
*hugs Shell and doesn't let go* thanks hun
*hugs Cheryl* don't worry hun, give yourself time, you're not wasting their time, honest, things will get better.
*hugs Todlich* don't give in hun, is there any reason you want to talk about?
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
Thanks Hannah.. at the moment I need to finish my essay (btw, staying home today.. stupid anxiety got the better of me :() and study for my exams but I'm also going home to see my family in a few weeks! And yeah, I'll be on more. I have kinda been neglecting you guys coz I've been posting elsewhere but here. *hugs* Hope your feeling better, glad you had fun with your friend!
I tried to get rid of my panic by cleaning today, it only worked while I was activly cleaning though. So now my kitchen is cleaner than when I moved in here, but I am panicked again. :(
"Nothing is quite so terrible as something done for your own good." Fred Blahut
Lord Jesus Christ,Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner.
*hugs Todlich* I completely understand, I'm glad you managed to fight the void off, think of that as a positive, hope you didn't give in. people get into your head and don't go away,but if they're causing you such distress then they're really not worth it *hugs*
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
*Hugs back* I was able to fight off the triggeredness as well - just. I ended up tool in hand, looking in the mirror and thought '...I just can't be arsed with this', and didn't do anything.
On the plus note, I'm still vaguely amused by the dream I had the other night of science teaching giraffes
*Hugs everyone* Sorry I'm not leaving individual replies, I get confused when the thread gets longer than a page.
I've just eaten way too much, and I just want to sleep.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
*hugs all* ~ can't write too much as cast keeps getting in the way
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Hey Hannah. It's not raining where I am, but it's still not very nice weather. My dad and sister have gone to Brighton but I decided to stay home, felt too tired.
Glad to hear you're feeling up to fighting and that you've resisted. Keep it up, I know you can do it!
Have fun dancing tonight :)
xxx
Hey guys, sorry I've been away for a bit and thanks to those that gave me the huggles when they were needed after the fiasco with my best mate. There has been far to much for me to catch up on but huggles all round!
I'd been staying with my partner and my mum for a bit but had no internet access or cutting kit, I came home yesterday but my mate had borrowed my laptop whilst I was away, so I didn't have the safety of the psych ward and cut myself after managing 4weeks free. muppet.
Anyhoo, think I'm gonna put the news on in the background and see what coverage of the d-day rememberance services may be shown as I missed anything after about 11am as my mate came round.
Whats anyone else been up to? xx
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
oh sweetie, I'm sure you didn't ruin the meet on purpose. Do you know what makes you collapse? I suffer with the occassional blackout due to NCS and its horrid and rather embarrassing depending on where and when it happens. Hope you were safe and looked after. *Special huggles and snuggles for you Helen!*
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
