Every time I fail my written driver's test, to get a beginners, I feel like a part of me dies.
The first time I will admit I didn't study and didn't really put any effort into passing the test, nor did I think I was. I failed.
The second time I studied hard and was really optimistic about passing my test. I failed.
Eventually I will be going in for my third attempt, but I am unsure about what will happen if I fail again? Will I go into a rage and let my neurotic perfectionism take hold of me?
I guess this is kind of like a metaphor, being a miniature scale of my life. Constantly trying and never succeeding. I feel failure is all I've ever accomplished. How many times can someone fail the same thing before just giving up?
I dread the day I go for my third attempt and have to look in my mother's eyes and say, "I failed," and then have to repeat that to the insurance company.
