I've had several dry periods, which are good, but then I relapse twice as bad as before.
at one point last summer, I had to stitch myself up.
No one in my family has ever noticed, and I don't want to tell anyone.
I showed my mom one really bad cut, when I was in 6th grade. she just said I was jealous of my sister with medical problems, and that I needed to shut up and stop being so attention grabbing.
Thats the thing though, I'm not doing it for attention, I don't do it for anyone else but myself. Only a very very few people in my life know about it.
I don't like hurting them, which i do, everytime i pick up my razor.
But I don't know what to do.
I've tried Music, drawing, writing, taking pictures, replacing it with other things, ect.
When I tried replacing it, I started an even worse addiction.
Pills.
I nearly OD'd.
I managed to stop that, but cutting got worse then.
I cant go to a psychiatrist, because my parents would have to know.
I can't go to a counsler, because i go to school online and we dont have counslers.
What can I do?
How do I stop?
Help me please.
Sorry this was so long.
<3 Rora
Last edited by Road to Nowhere : 04-03-2010 at 04:14 PM.
Wake up, grab a brush, put on a little makeup, hide the scars to fade away the shake up.
- Chop Suey, S.O.A.D.
I'm the nightmare you wake up screaming about.
Adopted by : x.Nala.x Love_Lies_Bleeding Phorenzix
Hey there.
I go to school online as well, and it's tough being without a school counselor.
I'm so sorry that you're struggling with this.
I don't have much to say right now, but I wanted to know that I'm here if you want to talk about anything.
Just pm me. (:
<3
*cuddles*
Could you go to your GP and talk to them about how you're feeling? Perhaps write a letter explaining everything and seeing if they could help you talk to your parents and get some support.
I'm sorry I don't have much advice sweety but I've read and I care, please take gentle care of yourself
xxxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
Hey there.
I go to school online as well, and it's tough being without a school counselor.
I'm so sorry that you're struggling with this.
I don't have much to say right now, but I wanted to know that I'm here if you want to talk about anything.
Just pm me. (:
<3
I feel so alone doing school online. I don't know anyone I go to school with... And i have very few friends in real life.
I'll pm you if i need to.
thank you.
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Originally Posted by _Tormented_
*cuddles*
Could you go to your GP and talk to them about how you're feeling? Perhaps write a letter explaining everything and seeing if they could help you talk to your parents and get some support.
I'm sorry I don't have much advice sweety but I've read and I care, please take gentle care of yourself
xxxx
*hugs*
Gp = granparents, right?
I couldnt tell them. theyd have an even worse reaction than my parents would. AND they'd call my parents.
I've wrote a billion letters, trying to describe what i'm going through, but i just end up destroying them.
Don't worry about not having much to say. any support at all is a bit helpful...
thank you for caring.
<3
Wake up, grab a brush, put on a little makeup, hide the scars to fade away the shake up.
- Chop Suey, S.O.A.D.
I'm the nightmare you wake up screaming about.
Adopted by : x.Nala.x Love_Lies_Bleeding Phorenzix
I'm sorry I meant GP as in your doctor, could you talk to your doctor about how you're feeling?
I'm sorry you feel really alone going to an online school. Is there anything in your area that you could join so you could meet more people your age? A club or community center or something?
xxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
It is very lonely doing online school.
I barely talk to my friends from my public school anymore.
And that lonely feeling just makes everything worse.
*hugs*
Tormented,
oh GP = General Practitioner. I should have put that together.
I couldnt talk to my doctor about it. She's close friends with my mom. She'd tell.
I am a volunteer at the zoo near me, and thats where i've met most of the people I know. I cant do anythign else, or join anywhere else because we dont have the money, and mom wouldn't drive me anywhere.
Chloe - I know. since my friends all started highschool, we barely talk anymore. They are too busy for me.
Wake up, grab a brush, put on a little makeup, hide the scars to fade away the shake up.
- Chop Suey, S.O.A.D.
I'm the nightmare you wake up screaming about.
Adopted by : x.Nala.x Love_Lies_Bleeding Phorenzix
it must be awful living in a 'virtual' world all the time. I am not in a good place to give advice atm, but everyone on here is really understanding and supportive.
I'm not meaning this to sound nasty but please could you remove the type of pills you have ODd on? Sorry its just it might be triggering for some people sorry I'm probably not even allowed to ask you to do that.
