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Old 14-01-2020, 04:55 PM   #1
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Feeling low

For some reason I feel low and lacking in energy. I just want to hide away and am sleeping tons. Yesterday apart from half an hour I didn't want to get out of bed and didn't get up until about 5.25 pm. I didn't bother getting dressed. Today I didn't wake up until 2.30 pm and although I am out of bed I am not dressed. I cba to cook (even though I love cooking) and tv doesnt interest me. Even programmes that I normally enjoy.

My cpn is coming on the 22nd so I will mention it then. I cant phone her before then as my cmht stupidly decided to install one of those press 1, press 2 etc and it would cost me more money to call them. Not to mention that I find those things stressful anyway and Idk which option to press anyway. Not to mention that half the bloody time they dont answer the phone. Plus Idk what my cpn can do other than get me a psych appointment which I dont want plus it will be February at the earliest.

I always find January hard anyway as my mh goes downhill in January. I dont feel like harming myself but I guess it's apathy. I am just hoping that it will go away soon.



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Old 14-01-2020, 06:22 PM   #2
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I'm sorry things are hard for you right now. It's good that you recognise it as a January thing in a way because hopefully that means it will pass. Are you at least doing the basics? Eating ok even if you're not cooking much? It's ok to just do what you need to right now. I know it's awful feeling low though. Does nothing help at all, even just a little to get away from the feelings? I hope you can speak to your CPN when she comes, maybe even just taking things through with someone who knows you would be helpful. Has anything helped in the past when you've had a low January?





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Old 14-01-2020, 07:18 PM   #3
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Thanks for your reply Lindsay. I am still eating though not terribly good atm because I cba to cook. I am still showering atm. Today I just sat in the dark all afternoon because even the thought of turning my light on was too hard. I just sit there when watching tv barely remembering the programme even though I know that I have watched it.

It helps to go to the park at the bottom of the road but today was just awful weather wise that I didn't want to leave the flat. Idk what helped in the past as I can't remember. I am scared that I will be forced to go IP as 6 years ago today I was IP due to low mood.



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Old 15-01-2020, 12:01 PM   #4
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Can you try doing very small things to gradually work towards getting back to your routine and managing things? Maybe if you took very small steps it would be manageable. Do you think you will go for a walk when the weather is better? I know it can be hard to get out but also that it can be really useful. How are you today?





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Old 15-01-2020, 07:19 PM   #5
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I have been texting Lorraine and she has being saying that the most important thing is that I am eating and drinking. I am drinking my normal amount but I am not getting as hungry as I normally do. I have to force myself to eat. I have been to the park at the bottom of the road but didn't stay long because of the fact there was a biting wind and I didn't have any gloves. But it forced me to get dressed which I havent done since Sunday.

I feel low today. I was supposed to go swimming but my aunt cancelled on me and I just went back to bed. Apart from answering the door to the postman I didn't bother getting up until 2.35 PM.



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I'm glad you're still drinking ok, keep trying with the eating. Even if it's just snacks or the components of a meal - e.g. bread, cheese, ham, whatever, instead of making a sandwich/meal if that feels like too much. It's really great that you managed to get to the park, well done. Will you try that again? You normally only go once a week, right? Could you go more often if it's close to you and easyish to get to? If people keep their plans with you do you think you would be able to go to things?

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Thanks Lindsay. I will try to eat. At the moment a proper meal feels too much. I dont think that I have lost weight so it's not a problem.

I will try to go to the park more but I dont tend to go when it's raining. It's dull and wet today. I feel slightly better today and am dressed right now. You are right that I usually only go once a week to the park. I will probably go swimming next week if my aunt goes. I am supposed to go to the hearing voices group on Tuesday.



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Keep going, you sound like you're doing the best you can and that's ok.

Are you planning on going to the group? I think it would be good for you to have some company if you can manage. Sticking to your routine as much as possible is a good idea.





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Thanks Lindsay.

Yes I do plan on going to the group. That if I can get up in time.



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I hope you do make it. When would you need to be out of bed by? Will you set an alarm? How are you feeling today?





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I have tried setting an alarm but I just sleep through it. I am a heavy sleeper anyway but I cant seem to wake up. I have tried going to bed early but I just dont sleep! My group is at 1 pm but I have to leave the flat at 12.15 pm due to bus times.



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