Im sorry

[Darkwings44]

I need control!!!!my life right now is just ****!!!! I need. To not eat anything!!

[Pi.R^2]

Not eating may feel like control now, but very soon it will control you and that will just be another thing in your life that isn't good.

Do you want to talk about what's going on in your life at the moment?

[Darkwings44]

theres alot thats happening in my life right now and i dont know how to explain all and i have no one that really listening to me because i have a therpist who is really bothering me

[Darkwings44]

its just alot thats happening.......

[Darkwings44]

people having all the control in my life right now....

[Darkwings44]

My therapist and everyone else............

[Pi.R^2]

What is your therapist doing that bothers you?

[Darkwings44]

not believe me when i tell her stuff and controlls what i do basically......

[Pi.R^2]

What kind of things does she not believe you about and in what way does she control what you do?

[Darkwings44]

About the abuse and stuff like that.......
She controls the music that I listen too and books that I read

[Pi.R^2]

I'm so sorry you don't feel like she didn't believe you; that's really difficult.

I'm not sure I'm understanding- how does she control the music you listen to and books that you read?

[Darkwings44]

yeah.......
she told the people at my group home to moniter what i listen to and what i read

[Pi.R^2]

Oh gosh, that sounds... unusual! Did she explain her reasoning for this?

[Darkwings44]

she says that i listen to toxic stuff and read toxic stuff too.....

[Pi.R^2]

Hmm, did she explain why she thought it was toxic for you? Do you feel like there's any negative impact on you from the things that you read and listen to?

[Darkwings44]

Yeah she said that it was about issues (ED. Self harm and suicide,) that was inappropriate for me to read or listen to........

No I really don’t because reading books and listening to music about the stuff I go through makes me feel less alone.......

[Darkwings44]

Yeah she said that it was about issues (ED. Self harm and suicide,) that was inappropriate for me to read or listen to........

No I really don’t because reading books and listening to music about the stuff I go through makes me feel less alone.......

[Pi.R^2]

Hmm, I can see both sides of this as I can completely see how you would feel comforted by this but also I guess sometimes we don't realise the negative impact that such things are having on us.

How are the staff at the group home? Do you find them supportive?

[Darkwings44]

i guess.... sort of...